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Post anew

2011-12-25T06:07:00.000-08:00

It's been quite a while bloggers.

Howdy?

Merry Christmas!

I can't write much for now, but let this be the start of another year of my being active here.

Miss you all.

Random Thoughts

2010-05-29T16:12:00.000-07:00

This post has no particular topic. There's just too many thoughts running in my mind at the moment, so I guess I should just mention them one by one.

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* I was so happy yesterday coz I was able to catch up with the college friends although it was quite a restricted reunion coz we only had a conference call. It wasn't an ideal reunion, but it was satisfying though. Everybody was just so excited to hear each other's voice and boast his/her life's buzzes. Although we only talked thru phone, the fun still overflowed. As in it was so much fun conversing with them. There isn't really a replacement for them notwithstanding the new friends I found at my workplace. Still nothing can replace them in my heart.

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* I just realized that this is now my sixth week as a copyeditor trainee. I only have to hurdle eight more weeks to finish the training. After that it's up to the company whether to hire me and my co-trainees. Good luck to us then!

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* I paid a visit at the publication office the other day and I was very glad to see the again faces of my TN family. It had only been weeks but a lot of things unbeknownst to me had already happened. Well not particularly pertaining to the publication but to the people I am close with. It saddened me to learn that one has to go, but I think it's only proper. On the other hand, there is this one member whose narcissism has gone out of cage. I hope he, for the Love of God, would change before everyone gets mad at him.

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* I chatted with my cousin from the US and she said she's going to give me her laptop computer when she arrives home early next year. Although it's still such a long time but it's better to have something to expect. Yipee!

I think this will do for now. I don't have time anymore to extend this post. Bye for now bloggers. Ciao!

another fuss

2010-05-22T16:39:00.000-07:00

I hate to fall into this deception once again. However, much as I try to suppress this budding attraction I'm feeling towards the opposite sex, I can only try much. You don't have a slightest hint how you always cross my mind. I wonder if I ever crossed yours, I'm not hoping though. Sigh. If only I were as insensitive as most people think I am, I wouldn't have to fuss on this issue. It's just too hard to deal with this special feeling especially if you know very well that the feeling isn't going somewhere--especially if you know very well that you'll get nothing but excruciating pain in return. Well I just can't fight this emotion anymore no matter how I feign. I'm not even buying it myself. I guess I cannot but let it flow freely.

a real quickie!

2010-05-16T15:47:00.000-07:00

A week after the historic full-blown automated national and local elections in Juan dela Cruz's nation, we are now practically still facing surprises brought about by the turnout of events. Well it isn't much of a surprise to know that the overly popular Sen. Noynoy is now nesting on the top spot of the presidential race. No doubt he can now stretch on a couch and listen to the ticking of the clock while he's waiting for the poll agency to officially pronounce him as the incoming president and successor of unpopular PGMA. What surprised me though is the fact that much of the votes were shared by Noy and Erap--like who would have thought? I dunno...I'm just surprised. For now, I can't stretch this post anymore coz my shift's almost over and the next agent is now here. ciao!

Halalan 2010!

2010-05-09T16:00:00.000-07:00

The time has come for us Filipinos to show our solidarity again. In this crucial time for our country, let us all unite and advocate for a clean and peaceful national and local elections. Let us use this significant event to show to the world that we Filipinos are responsible citizens. In spite of our divided political views, let us be united in one advocacy--that is to practice our constitutional right to vote. Let us tell the world that we aren't apathetic nor indifferent citizens. Show them we care for each other and for our future especially that of our nation.

Today, rise and shine early and proceed to your respective polling precincts. Make sure to cast your votes and persuade others to do the same. Make an extra effort also to survey your environment and report to authorities any election related irregularities you might notice. Our responsibility does not end after shading our ballots. It is equally important that we see to it that our votes, together with the votes of the rest of our countrymen, are counted truthfully. Let us not allow dirty politicians to use their money and buy people who'll try to manipulate election results in favor of their selfish aims. Our nation needs our cooperation now more than ever, and we are oblige to heed to this because whatever transpires in this elections, we are all directly affected.

Let me reiterate my point. It doesn't matter whom you're going to give your vote, as long as you are directed by your conscience and not by money (I'm referring to vote buying here), you are on the right path. Having said all these, lemme say good luck to all of us. Let's just all pray that everything will turn out fine. Good day!

HMD!

2010-05-08T13:41:00.000-07:00

Today is a special day for one of the special persons in our life--our mother. Let us utilize this occasion to thank them, to tell them how much we love and care for them, to apologize for whatever mistakes and/or insults and/or disappointments we have caused them, and to pay tribute to them in our own simple ways. It can be a lavish surprise party, an expensive gift, or just the simplest thing one can do to make them feel special on this very day. In fact, one doesn't have to force one's self just to buy a present for her because a simple I LOVE YOU coupled with a tight and prolong hug to go with sweet kisses will be more than enough gestures to make them feel the essence of Mother's day.

As for me, I still don't have a fixed plan as to how I'm going to surprise my mom. She asked me to buy her an ice cream the other day but I just shrugged. To make it up to her, I think I will have to surprise her today with an ice cream while saying my greetings, whacha think? It might be very simple but I'm pretty sure it would mean a lot to her especially that I don't give her presents often. This time, it's really the thought that counts. So Imma have to stick to this idea and buy a gallon of ice before I go home this morning. I just hope the ice cream won't become a soup when I arrive home considering that I'd still have to travel for at least 30 minutes. :)

Ma, you may not be the perfect mother--as we are not the perfect children--but your overflowing and unconditional love for us is more than enough replacement to whatever imperfections you possess. And for that we, all of your children, will be forever thankful for having you as our mother. If God will give us privilege to choose our desired mother, we will still unanimously handpick you over anyone else. We, at least I, could not just ask for anybody else.

Happy Mother's Day Ma. I can't be sure whether you will have the chance to read this someday, but if you do, please remember that I always love you and that will be in perpetuity. I'm sorry for my stubbornness, laziness, my being disrespectful sometimes, and for whatever pains and inconveniences I've brought you, please forgive me. Bear in mind that you are a wonderful mother and you will always be one of my precious few possessions. I don't have much in life ma, but for as long as you're with me (and our family of course), I feel so rich. :)

To all the mothers out there, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY. To all the children, please pay tribute to your moms because if not for them, you will not exist in this world. Go ahead and hug your mom. Also, don't forget to tell her how much you love her. :)

losing control

2010-05-01T15:29:00.000-07:00

Some say earning a college degree is difficult. Others say the same on finding a job after graduation. I'd say they're all right--absolutely right!

For me, however, there is still a more difficult job than the aforementioned statements. It's on deciding what direction of life one should take after long years of academic journey. Granted that going to school does not come easy nor does it come cheap, but under the auspices of one's parents, coupled with one's diligence and backed by perseverance it can be hurdled. Then, joining the labor force thereafter may be challenging, especially if you get rejected couple of times. Just don't give up and always put your best foot forward; sooner of later, you'll get a job.

Deciding what path to take in life is another story. One might be overconfident of their plans while still at school, but I'm telling you, with myriad uncontrollable circumstances lurking in every outskirt, life may turn out upside down leaving you dumbfounded and unable to take grip of it no more. You don't have to like it though coz that's just the beauty of life. Nothing's certain. Everything's temporary. Worse is, it comes with no signal and catches us off-guard oftentimes. Once it struck you, you won't anymore be sure of your every decision. And that's what happened to me. I was so sure then of my life's itinerary. But now, I'm only comporting to the situation I chose to engage. If I only resorted to impulsive decision, this life now would have been different although I can't be sure if it's negative or positive.

a quickie post...

2010-04-25T14:08:00.000-07:00

Today will be the start of my second week as a copy editor trainee at SPi.

As we advance in the training, I am already expecting the lessons to become more challenging; although we are still on the first module of the training which deals with the English language. After finishing basic and tertiary education, I thought the lesson will be as easy as ABC; but I was wrong. I was surprised to find out that I forgot almost everything I learned in school. I was like learning everything all over again within 80 hours only (divided into 4 hours a day so that would stretch to one month). Of course one can already picture how challenging it can be.

In spite of this, I am not worried because I know I'm not alone. (haha...confident :)) There are actually six of us in batch six undergoing training together with two SPi scholars who're joining us in the first month of the training. Modesty aside, there were more than a hundred who took the exam but only six of us passed so that's already a little achievement for us. :) The training, in my opinion, gets harder everyday but we don't seem to notice it because we don't treat it too seriously at all. Every time we're on discussion or answering exercises, we always insert a little funny conversation to lighten up the task (huh? what am i saying here?). Perhaps this is because we are all young people in the batch. The youngest in our batch is 19 while the oldest is 27 and none is married yet which according to our trainer is first time to ever happen.

Anyway, the training will last for four months and we are still on second week. Our trainers told us that the difficult part of the training will begin when we start doing the project specific. By the time we reach that phase of the training, she said we could no longer afford to smile at each other because of pressure. She said there are too many instructions we needed to familiarize ourselves with and all the other factors. If that is going to be the case, it is only proper that we enjoy ourselves while still at the first phase of the training because we might not be able to do it anymore later on.

Aside from the training, what I like in my new job is I get to see a lot of people everyday. I'm not sure about the figure but I think there are about 900+ employees at the present and still growing. Whenever we take our break and go to the canteen, it's just like I'm in school where I see students queuing to buy food. I think it's quite cool. Yeah, for now everything is still cool--one week down, 15 weeks to go.

I can't say anything else, this is just a quick post so I'll end this right here. I've to log out now...bye!

:(

2010-04-24T15:51:00.000-07:00

I know I've been barring this emotion for a while now. Yeah, I think I like you though I refused to acknowledge it and kept it stagnant somewhere in my heart instead. I was completely clueless that it has grown stealthily over time. Now, I think it has reached maturity because it started rushing through me and I don't know how to handle it. I was caught off-guard so to speak. The thought of confronting the emotion and confronting you, most especially, baffles me (or scares me might be more appropriate). For God's sake, I just don't know how. If I were to trust my instinct, I'd assume I've this little chance on you. But I can't gamble the relationship we have now. I don't have the balls yet. By the way, I dreamed of you the other night. It was so vivid that I thought it wasn't just something from my subconscious mind. It was exquisitely real and I loved it. I loved it. I loved it. Should I take that as a sign to pursue you? I wish I have the answer now. Rather, all I have is this sickening feeling. I need a sign from Him. I have to definitely do something about this before it backfires on me. :(

I'm not sure if you're into blogging, but if you happen to bump my site, Ya know who you are. I like you. :)

Daily fuss

2010-04-11T16:35:00.000-07:00

This issue isn't actually new to me--my co-workers discreetly expressing dissatisfaction over one of our superiors.

Most recently, however, I feel the gravity of the issue becoming serious as more reasons are dug. Also, I have the impression everybody's seeing the inefficiencies of our dear boss of which I cannot be sure whether or not intentional. Albeit I have the feeling it is, I'm hoping it isn't.

Before this thriving company gets stunned by the adverse effect of this issue, I hope for an immediate remedy. Else, workers might all resign as a result of their dissatisfaction. I fear that this might caught the owners of this company off guard because they know less if not nothing of what's happening here.

The present situation isn't worse yet though. It can still be straightened up before the worst.

Anyways, I'm about to log out so I won't stretch this post. Bye now!

Finally...

2010-04-10T16:06:00.001-07:00

The long wait is over.
A lady from the HR department of the publishing firm I was applying finally ended my angst ~~(I think this ain't a good word choice for its quite an overstatement)~~.
Guess what?!
I passed the exam and I'll be scheduled for a final interview anytime soon.
If everything goes well with it, I would be training as a copy editor.
I'm happy. I'm supposed to be. I put an effort to it and I waited for a while. Actually, I guess I am happy. I really DO!
Maybe there is just a little regret because I would have to temporarily set aside my Cebu plans--my dream job! But this ain't permanent though, nothing is.
This opportunity I have here at the moment is one great blessing I can't afford to just slip away in exchange for something uncertain.
Imma grab this now and let it be the starting point of my professional life. I think it's best for me not to worry much about the future and savor the present instead.

For now I'm still enjoying my stint as a part-time call center agent. And if God is willing, maybe I wouldn't have to let go of this job while on training for my incoming job.
The people I have been working with here are already close to my heart so saying goodbye to them will be a little hard. But if the situation calls for it, I might as well let it go. As the adage goes, you can't serve two masters at the same time.

Anyhow, I'm just happy that I got the job although I still have to undergo final interview and months of trainings before I could officially state such claim.
For now, this is already a good start.
:)

C O N F U C I U S !

2010-04-07T02:56:00.000-07:00

Hanging by a moment.

Today I was supposed to know the result of my examination in the job I applied for as a copy editor. I called the publishing firm yesterday but they told me to give them a callback today. When I spoke to the HR this afternoon, I was nonetheless told to call them again this weekend because they had just forwarded my essay exam to Manila and the result will not be available until Saturday.

After learning this, I was like ah ok this torture has to linger for a few more days. I've no other choice but to wait though.

What irritates me actually is not the delayed result of the exam. Rather, its the fact that I still can't figure out what I will do with my life after graduation. I have a part-time job presently but aside from the fact that I don't want to be stuck in call centers, the financial remuneration is not much considering that I'm only working every weekends. The only thing that keeps me going there is that I've been close to my coworkers and the job is not as stressful because I seldom receive irate calls. Sometimes, there's no call at all so I can just surf the net all I want. But really, I just love my employers because they're so kind. It's my first job also so I kinda treasure it til now.

Now this job I applied for in a publishing firm is not actually the one I have been longing for when I was still in college. I always wanted to go to Cebu instead and become a media practitioner. This whole idea of applying as a copy editor just came without signal and I just impulsively decided to apply because the salary is good.

I consider making decisions as the hardest job in the world, and now, I'm once again struck by its difficulty. I was so afraid that I might make an indecision but look at what I have dragged myself into. I'm left hanging by a moment. Hanging because I still have to wait for the result of my application in the publishing firm before I could decide to practice journalism in Cebu. Since I've already troubled myself in applying for this job, I decided to just wait for the outcome. If I'll make it, perhaps, I'll give it a year or two for experience. If I won't, Cebu here I come.

I actually do not see anything wrong with the work in the publishing company. First, it pays well. Second, I have been doing the work when I was still in the university. Third, I'm just here in the city, with my parents, with my friends, with people who are familiar to me, and the place of course, I don't have to adapt into whatever changes at all.

Nevertheless, it is because of these reasons that I want to go to other place. A place where I can start by my own. For many years now, I'm dependent with my parents, they wash my clothes, wash the dishes, provide me with allowance, they pay the bills, and all I do is sleep, eat, and work. Because of this almost couch potato lifestyle, I'm challenged to go off alone where I could learn to do everything by my own. That I think will give me a better definition of what life is. Also I'd like to work in a place where I know no one, where I would have to worry everyday what to eat, if I still have money for fare, and for my other necessities. In short, a life where everyday is a challenge. That I think that will make me a better man. Independent!

Most importantly, I want to go to Cebu because it's a place where I could best practice my profession. Dumaguete--my place--is very peaceful. This is best for retirees to spend their pension but not for a fresh graduate like me who wants to grow as a person and as a professional. There is almost no news in Dumaguete. And, being a journalist here will not even suffice to feed your hungry stomach including your family. In a metropolitan city like Cebu, the action is there and the money is there although the latter is not my priority as of the moment. My priority really is to practice my profession and grow as a person. But as of now, I can't be certain if I really know what my priority is.

I badly need intellectual advice. However, here's my gameplan. I'll just have to wait until Saturday, hear the result, if I'll make it, I'll get the job the muster the experience, if not, my Cebu dream will push though. How's that?

And their apathy continues....

2010-04-04T10:24:00.000-07:00

We're supposed to finish our project for our major subject today, but....

When I got out from my workplace at past 9 in the morning, I scurried to go home early. But since our residence is a couple miles away, I didn't reach home until past 10. I waited for a while because my mom was still cooking breakfast. After a quick breakfast, I read two chapters of "False Memory" by Dean Koontz because I didn't want to fall into deep slumber while my stomach's full. ~~(AyokongBangungotin!)~~ So, I think I fell asleep around 11 something.

I kinda loath to rise up early but I had to be awake at 3:30 p.m so I won't miss OUR rendezvous with my classmates ~~(but since we have graduated already, I think there should be former before the last word)~~ set at 4 in the late afternoon.

In spite of my efforts to be on time, I hit Dumaguete at past 5 which means I was already late for more than an hour but I was hoping they'll consider me because I reside a bit far from the city. While en route to the internet cafe of our ~~(former)~~ professor, I was baffled why not one of my classmates ever send me a text message to know my whereabouts. Since I was not able to reload my cellphone load balance, I didn't mind texting them assuming they started working with our project already.

To my surprise, I found not a single shadow from any of my ~~(former)~~classmates when I arrived at the internet cafe. I asked the attendant, not surprisingly, she confirmed that not one of my classmate showed up. Upon learning this, I was like...what the f.... After all the haste I made, this is all I got? After informing them a couple days ago about our project, this is just their silent response? In case you forgot, I'm not the only who needs a grade here. And where the f... is your shame? I can understand those who went to Cebu for their internship including those who went home to their respective provinces. But for those who are just nesting in the city, what excuse do you have? Besides, we all have cellphones; yet, you didn't even have the balls to inform me thru text that you WILL NOT COME so I shouldn't have troubled myself? 1, 2, 3.... Oh c'mon, I don't deserve this. Nobody deserves this.

Or maybe I was just expecting you guys will cooperate. So perhaps I should just take the blame right? Uh! Get a f..... life!

In was supposed to finish it myself, but I could no longer retrieve the videos. In case you care.... But I have a feeling you won't give a damn anyways so come what may guys. Enjoy!

Game Over!

2010-04-04T01:05:00.000-07:00

Time's up, game over!

This has to end.
It has to be punctuated now.
Make no mistake, it's a bold period ma'am.
I could no longer fumble a rational ground to continue.
It's better to disengage utterly by now.
After all, this has started undated.
To end in the same fashion would be unnoticeable.
Adieu thorny rose.
My gesticulations say so.
Decode it.
Not a word is necessary.
This silent commencement is more dramatic.
Even contemporary don't you think?
Adieu stained glass.
You've been frigid ever since.
Or I guess we were.
Rejoice now for our game is over.
I'm sorry but another try is not part of the choices.
Just let bygones be bygones.

PS
HAPPY EASTER!

Blah blah blah

2010-04-03T10:03:00.000-07:00

Before anything else, and for the first time, lemme touch the niche of politics in my blog. I am not a die-hard fan of Gibo albeit among the presidential candidates, I think if I'm going to vote right now with my current state of mind, I'll go for him. If you'll ask me why, no offense meant but I'd give my trust to a leader like him over an ex-convict or an over-spender. My instinct tells me so to boot though it shouldn't be the basis in choosing the next chief executive of our country. Whatever or whoever yours may be, I'll respect that as I expect you to do the same.

At any rate, I believe the recent move of Gibo relinquishing his post as the chair of his party is quite a good move--although I would have wanted for him to run independent. Nonetheless, considering the trend in our political arena, one needs a party for financial support and all the other privileges that go with it; therefore, such suggestion is a mere wishful thinking. I just raised it because most of the people whom I spoke with vis-a-vis their bet said Gibo would have been a better choice if he is not under the umbrella of the administration. Many believe that should he win the elections under the support of PGMA, he MIGHT be manipulated by her for the sake of indebtedness--but that's argumentative!

Anyway, this post ain't about policticking, it was just a private opinion of mine, which is as good as yours.

On the other hand, I should talk about life after school. No, no, no. Let me restate the last three words: BOREDOM after school. It's really boring to just sleep, eat, sleep, eat, sleep, and eat the whole day. Granted that I wished for this day to come--no stress from work and school, just pure relaxation--but for Christ's sake not a complete couch potato lifestyle like this for a week and counting. I don't want to join the 'army of unemployed', if I may borrow the words of my former professor--although technically I am employed for a part-time job so I'm not totally a liability to my family. And I'm not saying you are....

I recently applied in a publishing firm in our place but the thrill of knowing the result soon is killing me. God knows how much I'm dying to know the result immediately so I could readily change plans should I won't get the job. Guess what, I'll tell you a little secret, I'm actually hesitant to pursue with my employment here because the thrill of practicing my profession away from my family without knowing anyone, in a place entirely new to me, is adamantly digging in my system. Hell I'd love to get out of my comfort zone!

On a second thought, since I am a fresh graduate, I basically need some experience before hitting big cities. But the question is, will the experience I'll be getting here relevant to the field I'll be plunging in the future? Uhm, its quite relevant...I guess. I know I'm being vague here, but do you have suggestions? Should I bravely step into a place presuming I could face the world and that I could do anything only to find out that I was a fool to believe all these coz I'm absolutely ain't ripe yet, and that I was just rushing things up when I could have done it slowly, smoothly and surely. Alas! I think I'm just pressuring myself, what the rush for? After all, I'm still young and life is good. (Aw?) Oh yeah! Blah blah blah....

Farewell

2010-04-02T11:33:00.000-07:00

Time for updates now...

A lot of things transpired this past few days, and I don't know exactly where to begin.

1. I finally graduated.

2. We successfully had our two-day Lakta Tinta V (a seminar/workshop on campus journalism). The topics were great not to mention the fantastic speakers. I've been attending such activity for three consecutive years now but it was this year only that I think I learned a lot--maybe because all the speakers who confirmed showed up. By and large, it was a great event to end my stint in the publication.

3. Then, I applied as a copy editor in SPi. Much as I'd like to pull forward the hands of time so I would know whether or not I did well in the quite tough exam, I have to wait until April 5 to confront the result. I'm being optimistic, but my fingers are still crossed. If I won't get the job, I've to push through with my Cebu plans. It's only a matter of time now.

4. Right after that, we elected the new set of editorial board in the student publication. I'm happy for Jeremiah for being chosen as the new EIC, as well as to the rest of the neophyte in the editorial positions. It is now your time to take the helm of the leadership and responsibilities guys, just do your job well and everything will be just fine. You might commit blunders at first, but as you learn the ropes, it won't be that hard anymore. Just acknowledge your mistakes, if you must stumble then by all means do it, you'll need all these polishing experience. If it seems like the ordeal is insurmountable, just trust one another, most especially God, and you'll never fail.

For now, I'm still at work albeit its holiday. For the rest, utilize the idle week to reflect.

So long bloggers, happy holidays!

PS
as usual, wala na namang kinalaman ang title sa laman ng post...paxenxa...paxenxa...:)

Isang tulog na lang...

2010-03-24T19:43:00.000-07:00

Tama! Isang tulog na lang, I will be marching na! I'm actually having cold feet right now, naks parang ikakasal lang. :)

Ewan, writeless ako (panghalili sa speechless) ngayon. As in walang laman ang yutaks ko sa kakasobrang gabi (overnight) nitong nagdaang mga araw. Kaya ganito na lang, bigla na lang magtatapos ang post na to....

Tooooootttttttttttttttt...............

A cent worth

2010-03-21T14:08:00.000-07:00

Wow! When was the last time this blog was updated? Did I not promise to become a religious blogger? Well, I can only answer this line (one of my favorites actually): WORDS are not DEEDS!

Anyhow, I don't know what urged me to make another post. Ah! I know now! I'm inspired by "Up in the Air". Yup, I just finished watching it! Almost 20 minutes now as of this writing.

So what can I say about the flick now? Not much really. Make no mistake, it was a heart warming movie that reminds me how young people differ from their elders as far as their state of mind is concern.

When you are young, you tend to be very idealistic. After earning a degree, of course you'd like a well compensated job so you could buy all those stuffs you've been clamoring for since you were but a child. You want incessant parties, gigs, out of towns, name it. Then when you're tired of fooling around, you'd settle down and make a beautiful family. Send your children to school, work, attend their graduation rites, and then before you know it, you're already a grand parent. Retired and contemplating on your whole existence at the twilight of your life. Is this how you dream your life? Most people probably are.

As you grow older, however, although I don't think I've reached such maturity already to tell this so, you will realize that your insights on life is way simpler than you thought it was when you were younger. I mean as you advance in life, all those physical requirements you were looking for in a girl or guy would just fade notwithstanding your futile consternation. You will be taken aback as you find out that you could actually settle with someone who does not sing, not slim, not intelligent, no sense of humor, a college drop out, unemployed, or maybe with kids already. But on a whole new different perspective, you'd settle with that someone because you guys can get along well, you see the world in its 180 degrees turn with his/her presence, or simply because he/she has a nice smile, nice pair of lips, nice teeth. Whatever it is, things are basically different as you age.

At the end of the day, it is not important what state of mind you belong or you enjoy most. What is important is how you live your life and how well you cope with life's indispensable realities. You may not be able to stomach these but that's the way it is. Life will never be as beautiful as you fantasize it. That is an inalienable truth on life.

Now, you may be wondering why the hell I'm speaking of rhetorics here and not on the film. Like I said earlier, the movie inspired me to make this post but this post ain't about the movie.

Lakad para sa kalikasan

2010-03-05T21:23:00.000-08:00

The longest walk of my layp!

In my two decades of existence in this quite imperfect world (aw?), I have not yet engaged myself in a nine-kilometer distance of non-stop walk--not until few days ago when some of the members of the student publication (xempre kasali din me) willingly joined the "Walk the talk" activity organized by Foundation University to urge people in the community to care for the environment.

The marathon walk started in the wee hours of February 13. Since we are not really 'morning people', we had to be awoke before the dawn broke. We braved the chilling Saturday morning air just to go to Valencia where we all assembled.

When the walk started, we were almost oblivious of the distance because we all enjoyed with our respective chit chats. But as the walk progressed, we gradually felt our leg muscles aching. I thought I would not be able to make it but thank God, I did it! And I was so proud of it!

The environmental walk ended at the facade of Robinsons Place Dumaguete where a little program was conducted before we hit our separate ways. At first, the program was quite fine but as the politicians/participants were introduced and made their speeches on stage, what seemed to be a solemn campaign for the environment turned into a political rally as most of the politicians indubitably recited their rhetorical speeches to attract voters--albeit you can't easily put us, the youth, in your pockets, sirs.

Anyhow, it was a great activity although it was rather tiresome especially for me who live a couch potato lifestyle. So, have you walked that far--9km? I did! :)

P.S.
kabalo ko super pan-os na ni nga post. Sagdi ra gud, kamo kunoy every 10 years ra mag-update og blog bi. khekkhek :)

Relationship suicide

2010-02-27T15:26:00.000-08:00

And now I have come to the last chapter of my college life. Just a few more days and my four-year-academic-journey shall come to its lofty end.

I know it'll never be that simple and it'll never be that easy. Not until I conquer the final blows of obstacles that are planted on my way to feel the ever wanted tertiary diploma.

All of the arduous final requirements and projects have now compiled a mounting pile of stress that can be trace on our (graduating studes) faces. Too many things to accomplish, yet too limited time. This unprecedented pressure is tearing me off. 24 hours is just to little time and sleeping is a mortal sin. I can't afford to procrastinate, ergo, I should perpetually hammer myself so I won't deviate from my track.

But I know very well that talking about all these blah blah blahs will only pull me faster to drown in this fathomless pressure. What I need rather is to conserve every little energy I could muster to stand amid all these. On that note, I should end this post now and get some rest.

Though everything seems ambiguous for now, I'm quite confident that, like everything else in this world, THIS TOO SHALL PASS.

P.S.
This post's title is completely irrelevant to the content of the post.
Adik lang talaga ako sa songs ng The Script so I decided to use some beautiful words from their songs.
Nga pala, ngayon ko lang napagtanto, come back post ko pala to :) after being idle ad nauseam.

First post for 2010

2010-01-02T11:23:00.000-08:00

I know I have been not only a lousy blogger, but by and large a lousy person last year. Matter-of-factly, I think lousy is an understatement. Let me itemize here some of the not so pleasing things I did in 2009 so that, although I have this feeling nothing would change this year, I can sort of battle against myself to change for the better.

In the previous year, I know I've hurt other people's feelings intentionally and unintentionally; I have become a pain in the neck for many people to the point that they have resorted to curse and despise me for as long as they're breathing; I failed to keep bundles of promises; I have become the cause of delay for many activities and projects; as always, I have become a procrastinator and left a lot of unfinished works resulting to my superiors inconvenience and frustration; for many times, I lied to many people; I failed to show affection to people I love; at times, I admit that I became greedy and selfish; I failed to do my responsibility as a man of God; and so on and so forth.

One does not need to wait for a new year to change. However, it is at this time that, like many people who are fond of new year's resolutions, I find inspiration and encouragement to do better and be better. It is at this time that I reflect on those shortcomings and lapses, and live a healthy lifestyle. Healthy not only physically but emotionally, financially, psychologically, socially, and spiritually as well.

So apart from working hard to improve on my aforementioned negative traits above, part of my new year's resolution is to, first and foremost, become a religious blogger so I could update my blog as frequent as possible, second would be to spend more quality time with my loved ones especially my immediate family and with God of course, next is to do better with my academics and by all means do everything to graduate come March this year, and I shall also do better with my work. Actually, there's still many things I want to include here but as of this writing, these are my priorities.

I know pretty well that words are not deeds, and that these resolutions shall remain futile unless I transpire them into actions. But with dedication and perseverance, along with God's guidance, nothing is impossible.

P.S.
I hope you guys had the best Holidays spent with your loved ones.
Well, I hadn't had the grandest and most lavish Christmas and New Year but it was just incomparable and memorable because I spent it, very rarely, with my family. There is nothing more fulfilling that every quality second I bonded with them.
Happy Holidays Bloggers!

What if...?

2009-12-12T14:56:00.000-08:00

I have just watched "The Invention of Lying" which starred Ricky Gervais and my favorite Jennifer Garner. It was a romantic comedy film, but there's nothing more I could really share with you guys regarding the movie--just see for yourself.

I was just struck by the idea or of the situation that was brought to the big screen. What if nobody knows how to lie? What if everybody tells the truth however offensive it may be? What if lying was not discovered? And who discovered it by the way? What if the world is entirely different from the way we know it? Is it possible?

Well I don't have the answer either but I have a hindsight of it. If everyone tells the truth, then probably, many would find this post dull, a complete trash, and other related criticisms. Or, maybe I don't really mean talking about this "lying" crap, rather, I just want to benefit from the end part of this post (ie. to update my blog).

Yeah, we could all become harsh with our words if it's true anyway. We could freely say that one is fat, or thin, or ugly, or incompetent, and so on. Perhaps one could honestly say what he feels towards his opposite sex?

Above all, we will all rejoice because we won't have corrupt politicians. Now that should have been a better Earth, isn't it? However, we all know that this will forever remain a wishful thinking.

Hanggang what if na lang tayo ano?

out of melancholy

2009-12-09T04:37:00.000-08:00

It's at times like this
that I assess the value of my existence

When nothing but a solitary silhouette,
a recorded mellow voice imprisoned in a box
and an undisturbed silence
make up your surrounding

When kins and friends are beyond reach
that you notice every pebble,
hear every cricket,
and consider every attempt to stop breathing

Well, how do you handle,
a fragile and drowning emotion
that's pulling you down to the moist of the earth?

And then a soliloquy...

How was I living...
Is it really a life I'm living...
Is it worth living...

Perhaps, I should get a life first.

KANINO KA BUBOTO?

2009-12-06T14:11:00.000-08:00

Before anything else, it's good to be posting again after being idle for quite a long time. Well, if we only have internet connection in the office these past days, I should have updated this blog religiously. But thank God I got no calls and by all means I could utilize my time updating this blog while at work. :)

Anyway, just a few more days and we will have to bid farewell to 2009 and welcome another year. But more than our anticipation to the entrance of 2010, another thing we must highly anticipate is the forthcoming presidential elections. Mainly because whatever its outcome becomes, it shall, directly or indirectly, affect not only our individual lives but most especially our entire nation. The outcome of the creeping elections shall determine the fate of us Filipinos. So it is only proper that we should all be participative in choosing the right people that would lead us as the years unfold. And if there's any sector that needs to heed this call seriously, it should be us--the YOUTH.

At this early, I believe that most of us already have bets amongst the presidentiables right? However, I think it is noteworthy that we should set standards for those candidates whom we should be entrusting our votes. I mean this is not the time to just apathetically say "Bahala na si Batman". We cannot afford to be indifferent because we are talking here of our collective future. We should elect a leader whom we believe is apt for the position.

So how do we choose the right leader then? Well, I don't know that much but I think we don't need to ask the soul of the late Ernie Baron just to be enlightened, right? You have to have a solid basis. By saying that, it means you have to track their records, their credentials, personalities, integrity, skills, intelligence, and others. Hindi pwede yung ibubuto mo na lang si ganito kasi feel mo lang. I know it is our Constitutional right to vote, pero kung ganun din lang ang magiging basihan mo sa pagbuto, or worst kung suhol din lang ang basihan mo sa pagbuto, wag na lang.

In this connection, it is vital to watch various presidential forums because they are few of the avenues for us to filter the right people to become our next chief executive. An example of this was the recent Presidential Forum organized by ANC. I don't intend to influence your choice, but lemme just share my views of the said forum after watching it.

Among the presidentiables who participated in the forum, I could cut down my list to only three candidates of which I will include Senators Noynoy, Gordon, and Sec. Gibo. For me, only the three of them standout from the rest of the candidates. Well, I have always considered Noy and Gibo in my list but after watching the forum, I was convinced that Gordon also deserves the position like the two. I won't go elaborating my reasons here, rather I want you guys to see the forum and decide for yourself. Although it shouldn't be the sole basis for our selection, it helps greatly. Again, I'm calling to the electorate, especially to my fellow youth, to participate in the coming elections and vote intelligently.

Cheers for Manny! Cheers for us!

2009-11-15T14:18:00.000-08:00

courtesy of www.pacquiaovideo.com

If I should have to make a new post to update my blog, well the recent very-impressive-TKO-victory of People's Champ Manny 'Pacman' Pacquaio against Puerto Rican welterweight (ex) champion Miguel Cotto is unquestionably the topic to be for any blogger.

Although I have already known Pacman's lopsided victory over Cotto four hours before the super-late-commercial-packed-national-telecast of the historic fight, I couldn't help but set aside my disappointments and just celebrate with the whole Filipino nation for our hero's another achievement. It was just so overwhelming to see not only our countrymen but even foreigners cheering for Manny and rejoicing with us when the latter won. You just can't help but be proud of being a Filipino and savor the moment while our flag was hoisted.

As for Manny, well he's definitely the Pound for Pound king and there's no question to that. He's just amazing whenever he fights--blinding speed, dynamic and powerful punches, and the rest of the characteristics that a world caliber boxer should possess--he's got it all. With everything he's been through during his trainings, he deserves every fame, wealth, and respect that's been showered to him.

His triumph did not only disproved criticisms that he put his boxing career on the backseat because of too many commercials and other commitments he's engaged in showbizness, his latest triumph also meant that whatever disaster that will strike this nation or whatever issues that may seem to divide us we are still solid and united. I hope we should remain united even when Manny retires. I hope.

Congratulations our dear Manny for making a history on your seventh title and thank you for making us proud again. I hope to see the same Manny again fighting against the Pretty boy soon.

A Post For Noriel Bajor Jr.

2009-11-06T02:04:00.000-08:00

(from right to left: Me, Paul Denver Sy, Junrell aka Bong, Jay-Ar aka Bea, and Noriel.)

It has been said that "friends come and go, but for the precious few, you should hold on".

Last time, we surprised him with a despidida party during one of the meetings of the staffers in the publication. And truly, if I may base this from his reaction, he was indeed surprised to hear our special messages and acknowledgments for him. He was even teary eyed.

This post is supposedly for Noriel only but I know that once I get this post published, everyone can read. So I should be introducing him to you. He is Noriel Bajon Jr.--a blogger, a friend, a colleague, an adviser, a very talented guy, a course mate, and a very wonderful person--as in walang masamang tinapay sa kanya and he can wear any hat anytime and he could handle it very well.

He was a sophomore Mascom stude while I was a freshman when I got to know him . However, although we were course mates, we did not become close instantly because he was still a bit timid then, not until we both decided to join in the college student paper. Since then, I saw him transformed into a lively, jolly, and confident individual with overflowing talent and ceaseless energy.

Every time he enters the office and sees the low shoulders of the staffers, just one joke and he would send everyone laughing out loud effortlessly. He is an inborn comedian. But aside from that, what I admire him most is the way he deals with people around him. He is definitely a debonair--a friend to everybody. For four long years that I've known him, I couldn't say anything bad against him.

But just last month, he finally graduated which would also mean he has to leave the publication because a job is also waiting for him in Bacolod. I know he would be a big loss to us, but I understand we all have limited time in the university. Sooner or later, we would all be graduating and leave the publication at once. Anyhow, we know that our friendship is not limited to the publication alone, nor will it end when one leaves. On the other hand, we know that it would be continuous despite the distance and so we are holding to that.

Perhaps I, like everyone else in TN, am not yet accustomed to the thought that he will no longer be there to cheer us, he would no longer be there to perform for us, and he would no longer be there to let me borrow his laptop and play plants vs zombies or watch movies all night.

Bon Voyage! Hapit na pod mi, one more sem to go! :)

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As we bid farewell to one of the members of our family in the publication, it is truly never easy especially that he was one good soul and a very wonderful person. But on a positive side, we are happy for him because I know that this is what he wanted. Basta, we will miss you Noh and thank you for everything. Kung idol ko nmo, mas idol tikaw Noh. Godspeed and do well in your career. See you at the big one!

Back to school fever...

2009-11-04T19:23:00.000-08:00

After enjoying a few days of vacation brought about by the semestral break, it's back to school again. It is high time again to hurdle another semester full of school works--assignments, quizzes, projects, etc. It is high time again to get frustrated with our no-show teachers who would teach us nothing with our major subjects.

And speaking of subjects, it's a good thing that my remaining subjects this semester are all major subjects. In other words, no longer will I be worried with my arts subjects because I'm saying goodbye to them all.

I could still remember my tender years in the university where my prospectus is loaded with arts subjects--Social Sciences, Filipino, English, PE, and Math--my least favorite. Modesty aside, although I got high grades with my Math subjects and that I'm proud to say that I learned more in this subject compared to my secondary years, I still don't like this subject much. Perhaps, dealing with numbers isn't just my forte that is why I end up taking Mass Communication.

Nonetheless, I have a feeling I'm not the only one who seem allergic with Mathematics. I would presume that a lot of students also find difficulty with this subject. Well, they could not blame us because Math is Math and you can't argue with that. If you can't understand it then you can't understand it, unless you get a tutor and seek for a little help.

It's absolutely true, maybe you just need a tutor to help you understand the principles of Math especially with your Algebra lessons. However, you may find it awkward also to hire a tutor who is a complete stranger to you and let him/her come to your place. The good news is that, you don't have to stick with this conventional way of tutoring anymore if you find it inconvenient for you.

Like they said, we are now living in what they call 'Computer Age'. Truly, we can now do a lot of things through the help of our computer. Even online tutoring has also become pervasive in the internet today. This means you can now get Algebra help without leaving your computer. Just surf the net and you can find many sites that offer online tutoring. One of these tutoring companies is TutorVista where they offer 24/7 online tutoring.

With this contemporary way of tutoring where you can have it anytime and anywhere so long as you have internet connection, seeking math answers for your math problems or any other math word problems and algebra word problems should now be more convenient for you. Topics such as Quadratic Equations and others should not worry you anymore, thanks to algebra 2 help.

But anyway, I'm just so happy I already passed my college algebra and trigonometry. :)

I want gold!

2009-10-31T12:22:00.000-07:00

If there's anything I want to have in this material world, of course it would be something precious--something as precious as gold maybe. After all, who doesn't want to be rich? Who doesn't want to have more money and live a luxurious life? Anyone?

Well, I just think that gold is one of the biggest tradings anywhere in the world today, which makes it a very good investment for your money. However, since I don't have that riches, I could never invest in gold business, but if I could only dream...

I'd like to have gold jewelry sets, gold faucets, gold coins, etcetera. Like in early civilizations where gold coin has played a vital role in commerce, I'd like to bring back those times where gold coin will be used in lieu of cash trading.

But if you want real gold coins, you can search for websites that sell gold bullion coins. Like in gold coins gain website, you can find various gold bullion online. This may come as a haven for those who want to collect gold bullion coins around the world.

I wish I could also afford that expensive collection. But who knows right?

Happy ba mo...

2009-10-17T20:41:00.000-07:00

Happy Sunday Bloggers!

This ain't the time to emote. I just noticed that my blog posts lately were all sort of mushy. But now, I just feel so positive. I don't know why. Maybe because the sun is up, there's no brownout (we experience brownout almost every Sunday in our place),or perhaps I just feel that this is going to be a happy day for me, really.

Well, whatever it is, I hope it won't go the other way. No. Never. Oh Lord, please don't allow that this positive vibe I'm feeling would turn out to be the opposite of what is going to happen today. I think I should erase, delete, trash, (name your adjective here) that negativity. I started this post with a positive outlook, therefore I should sustain that til this day ends.

Right now, I still have some things I need to finish today so I won't stretch this post anymore. I just want to announce this positive energy I'm having at the moment. I hope it'll be contagious. I hope you are also feeling the same. Bye everyone. It's a sunny Sunday. Enjoy and have a great day. Gob Bless Us Always. Bye for now.

Juan Tamad

2009-10-17T06:27:00.000-07:00

"You can build a shack overnight, but if you want to build a house that can stand against the fury of hurricane or storm, it will take time."

Although I am uncertain if that is the exact sentence, nonetheless I'm sure that the idea expressed in the sentence above is the wisdom that the author of the book, which I've read years ago, is trying to relay to its readers.

We may have different interpretations but this is the way I comprehend it. What the author was saying is that there is no shortcut to anything in this world. You should exert efforts and keep your patience always high. In other words, if you want to own a house you wish to be yours forever, you should work hard so you will have the money to buy it. But if you just want to dwell in it for only a day or two, you can easily rent it because you will only be needing a few bucks, you don't have to work hard.

Now I'd like to apply this principle to the attitude I am possessing at the moment. All this time, I thought I am no longer the same procrastinator I was then, that I'm already a mature responsible person. But look what I'm doing right now. We have many many things to do for our major subjects--articles, exams, documentaries, etc. etc.

All of these have deadlines but I seem not to care at all. I did not even submit an article yet for one of our major subjects while all of my classmates were able to beat the deadline three days ago.

Well, we actually had our news legging and I think my facts would be enough to make a five-page news feature article. But I just can't find the energy or the enthusiasm to do so. It's as if I do not care at all if I'll be given a failing grade. It's as if I do not care to graduate anymore. It's as if...

Actually, this post is supposedly a lengthy one but again, I feel like procrastinating so I will end this piece of crap 'til here only. Sorry for the wasted time. :(

A feeling of guilt...

2009-10-15T18:43:00.000-07:00

Last night, (if I may borrow these words from our EIC) marked another milestone in the annals of the publication’s history. We just had to put an end to the two-month training of the newbies in the publication.

To come up with a sound decision, the editorial board made a deliberation as to who’s going to make it and who’s not. It was not an easy task of course because whatever decision the board makes, it will directly or indirectly affect the motivation or maybe even the life of the newbies. It might even affect their studies, since we are all full time students here, although it totally depends on how they accept it.

And so a painstaking assessment to their performance during their stint in the publication became our solid basis for the decision. There were verbal tussles among the editors which only proved how difficult the tasked put on our shoulders that time. Matter-of-factly, we even had to reminisce how we went into the same process during our fresh months in the institution. Needless to say, we also felt the same amount of trepidation (if I may use it in lieu of nervousness), the same amount of thrill, and the same amount of cold sweats, thus we were utterly sensitive to their feelings. Of course we understand how painful and frustrating it must be for those who won’t make it, but we have to come up with a decision however hard it may be for us, for them.

I always believe that the hardest job in the world is to decide, and again, I have just proven it right last night. After a careful assessment and deliberation, we finally reached a unanimous decision. But our task did not end there for we still have to announce the decision to them.

Before we revealed their verdict, a series of speeches among all the staffers was done first. Then, finally, we heard the words from the newbies. Most of them were nervous, some tried to be confident, some were teary-eyed, and some even burst into tears. Now could you still break the bad news to them?

Nonetheless, we still have to tell them, after all what’s the use of our deliberation? I don’t know how it went so fast, but we were able to tell them in just a few minutes. But after that, the editors all felt the guilt haunting us. We just saw mixed emotions from them. For those who made it, we saw overflowing joy and gratitude, but of course, we also saw disappointment. I just hope that they would understand that our decision and accept it without hard feelings—I just hope because I was not able to sleep well last night. I have been in the publication for three joyful years now, but I’ve never been caught in I what I considered the most awkward situation of my student journalist’s life, until last night.

On a lighter side, I would like to congratulate those newbies who are now officially members of The NORSUnian. I hope you would continue to excel, stay humble, stay responsible, and keep your spirit up. God bless us.

Lab Istori

2009-10-14T07:06:00.000-07:00

Today I just figured that I should end this stupidity
before it devours my sanity.
I have proven time and again that a relationship
whose foundation is as weak as infant and
a relationship that sprung out of lies
and nurtured with lies
will never head a rightful path.
Yet, I continued playing with the game
believing we could work things out.
But what could you expect from a treacherous love affair?
I should not have allowed us to reach this far,
I should not have invested too much,
and I should not have played the game where
we would all be losers hurting at the end.
But what's the use of my blah blah blah
over things that can never be undone?
So the mature thing to do now is to
let go of it at once whilst I still have the courage to lose grip.
Today, I'm putting a quotation to this stupid sentence--a period.
Thank you and GOODBYE!

tv time

2009-10-13T09:18:00.000-07:00

courtesy of google

Right now I still have to hurdle some series of examinations because our finals week is up again. For the time being, I should set aside my leisure time. But after this week, I would be free to do anything again such as watching movies and television shows.

Now if you are a TV addict like me, I bet you would agree that your viewing pleasure would be more enjoyable if you have more channels to choose from especially if it is in High Definition (HD). Surely, it is more fun compared to your ordinary tv shows in local channels right?

In the United States of America for example, where they have Commercial Direct TV, HD channels aren't a problem at all. This is because they offer exclusive programs that you will not get with cable. Plus, in D irect TV for Business, they also offer exclusive sports programming that would surely satisfy your viewing pleasure. Not only that, most of the Direct TV subscribers attested that Direct TV Business helped increase their business. No wonder they more people are satisfied with them than cable.

Man in a cup

2009-10-12T10:56:00.000-07:00

I saw a man
staring at me—not winking
His mind shouting for help
albeit his silence

He’s trapped in a dark smoky world
helpless, exhausted

He’s barring a tear
that’s been peeping in his tired eyes

His soul bathing
in a fathomless river of solitude

He stretched his pale lips
faking a smile
But it only made him
more miserable
His soul wrecked

I’ve never seen a man
with such a dying spirit

I wanted to help
cheer him maybe

But I was bitten by reality
I don’t differ to this man
I ain’t capable of helping
I’m just a reflection of him

This house is as empty as a vacuum
Notwithstanding my presence
I’m just so detached from the world
No one to chat with or cry with
Not even a beep from them
Just a radio

So I continued writing this piece
alongside a black coffee
Every sip is a hope
That its bitterness
Would drown at once
this emotional turmoil

Before I take another gulp
I saw the man again
But now I’ve figured
his identity
I am not his reflection
it’s the other way

Nosebleeding post...

2009-09-25T13:01:00.000-07:00

Pagal ang katawan
Butas ang isipan
Kailangang umusad
Bahala na si Batman
Tila nag-iisip
Mas lalong nilalaliman
Wala namang laman
Takte!

Mabilis ang lakbay ng diwa
Wala namang patutunguhan
Kahit anu na lang
'Wag lang mabaliw
Malapit na!

Pilit may inaalala
Ayan at natameme na
Ayaw talaga
Walang mapiga
Tigilan na!

Biglang may tumunog
Paulit-ulit
Tulog mantika pa rin si katabi
Di bali na
Hayaan na natin siya
Ayan na naman
Ang kulet talaga!

I wanna be a carpenter...

2009-09-23T01:50:00.000-07:00

photo courtesy of google

Oopps...Lemme correct myself, I don't mean I want to have carpentry as my source of living in the future (although I am not closing my door to the idea). I just want to know a little bit of this craft.

Of course, I am seeing myself as a husband and a father someday, so naturally I am expected to fix the fence or maybe repair some broken cabinets or drawers and all those simple hammering jobs. For God's sake, how will I perform such job when I can't even properly use a hand saw? I am not even sure if I could drill a small hole inside the house or use those simple hand tools myself. Aside from turning a flashlight on and off, what else do I know? (sighs)

Well these are just self-inquiries. I believe it's never too late for me to learn some of these things someday--before I'll start my own family. What about you guys, do you have the same inquiries? Perhaps, we have become so dependent to all these touch or press stuffs we are enjoying in our generation now that we are no longer minding those simple things I've mentioned above. I hate to admit it but I'm guilty of this.

MALIGAYANG ANIBERSARYO SA BLOG KO!

2009-09-18T10:30:00.000-07:00

Di ko lang sure kung last week ba yun, basta sure akong naka-lampas 500 post na siya. Yup, ang katropa kong si Aian e more than 500 blog posts na ang naitala sa kanyang bahay sa blogosperyo. Siyempre, matagal-tagal na rin siya sa pagba-blog.

Kaya naman, naitanong ko rin sa sarili ko kung nakailang posts na ako. Aba naman, mabagal pa pala sa pagong ang aking iniurong dahil pang-singkwenta ko pa lang 'to. At ito pa, sa paghahalungkat ko ng kaban, akalain mong ngayon ko lang din nalaman na isang taon na pala akong umeepal dito sa blogosperyo? Biruin mong since August 2008 pa pala akong miyembro, e parang kelan lang ata yun!

Hay naku, hambilis talagang lumipas ng panahon. Kaya naman, dahil this is going to be my 50th post, I'll take this opportunity to thank everyone na naging bahagi ng aking pagiging blogger. Sa lahat ng bumisita, bumasa, umepal, at sumubaybay sa Alipin ng KaHIRAPan, hisang malaking tEnChu senyong lahat. Salamat sa isang taon na puno ng echus. Sana naman ay humaba pa ang ating samahan dito. Salamat talaga ng marami.

Anyway, dahil nga sa ang post na 'to ay puro pasasalamat, lemme thank the following bloggers whose name I will be mentioning below. Unang-una, tenkyu sa boss naming si Bong na siyang ~~nagtulak sa'min sa bisyo~~ nag-udyok sa'min na magblog. Siyempre sa mga kasamahan ko rin sa ~~kulto~~ publication na halos kasabay kong nagumpisa: kina Marga at Noriel na ngayon lang naligaw ulit sa blogosperyo at sa aking sapantaha ay umiiwas lang na magkaroon ng strike. hehe. Ay, nakalimutan ko nga pala si Dora na kamakailan lang ay sinuspendi ang account dahil sa pangahas na pang-aangkin niyang jowa siya ni John Loy. Toinks! Peace Out Doh!

Magpapasalamat din ako ng maraming-marami kina Manikang Papel na super active nung kakaumpisa ko pa lang, tapos biglang nawala na lang sa sirkulasyon. MP, wereber yu ar, bumalik ka na naman pls. Ganun din kay Ms Dylan na laging libre ang kape tuwing napapadaan ako sa shop niya, hehe. Naku, ito sa pa'ng isang miss din si Ms. Cindyrellaz na alam kong masaya dahil sa kanyang soulmate, tenchu po. Super tEnkYu din kay pareng Mulong na kahit papanu ay umeepal sa mga post kong non-sense. hehe.

Isang bonggang pasasalamat din kina Pusang Gala na originally known as Pusang Kalye at kay Kosa naman na tumangkilik din sa aking blog. Syempre ganun din ang gratefulness ko kay pareng Marco na idol ko dahil sa kanyang mga tula. Thank you po mga kuya.

Speaking of kuya, super tenkyu din kina Master Ron at Sir Pajay na lately ko lang nalaman na best of friends pala in real life. Isa kayo sa mga hinangaan ko when I was new, at patuloy na hinahangan until now. Salamat po.

Ngayon naman sa dalawang babaeng hindi ko lang katropa sa blogosperyo kundi mga kapatid ko nang itinuturing. Kay Ate JOshy at Pres Sis Dee, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for making my stay worthwhile and enjoyable. Ate Joshy, kahit dadalawa lang kami ni Dhianz sa fans club mo, solid naman kami. hehe. Basta, I hope what we have started would still continue in the coming years. Haylabyu both.

Bago ko makalimutan, taos puso din akong magpapasalamat kina Ms Donna, Kcatwoman, Waterbased, Zeb, Jepoy, Ms. Yanah, Prof. Yodz, W.A.I.T at sa lahat ng mga followers at naging followers ko. Ganun din sa lahat ng naging kaibigan at naging bahagi ng blog ko, di ko man kayo mamention lahat, basta sa lahat ng nasa blogroll ko at sa lahat ng nagkomento, salamat talaga ng marami...as in super thank you po.

Hanggang sa susunod na kabanata!

Once again, happy anniversary to my blog!

GudmOrNiGhT

2009-09-11T14:41:00.000-07:00

Well, right now, the moon yielded to the rising ball of fire. Roosters are alternately responding to their music. Yet, I'm still trap in this artificially aired (is there such a description?) and well lighted room. My eyes are soring. My back is also aching. They need rest but they can't until I get my ass off here. Boredom is hugging me, and devouring my sanity. No music. Just the sound of keyboard while I'm typing. This ain't a music room but a workplace so I should not babble anymore. It won't take long anyway and I can still carry on. This is my life during weekend. It's not hell, but it's definitely not heaven.

Hours from now, I would have to get few hours of sleep. Perhaps, four or five hours would be enough. I need to rise up and perform my obligations. I don't need procrastination - no, not this time. There's just too many tasks I need to be doing, especially in the publication. Editing for the weekly paper, writing articles for the magazines, blah blah blah. I hope nothing would get in the way that would disrupt my attention, else, I would waste time again. This is my life as a student journalist. Tiresome, tedious and exhausting but I'm loving it. It's giving me life. A life I have been proudly living.

Well, the light outside is creeping faster. But, whatever happened to the roosters, I ain't hearing them anymore. I think I have nothing else to say. I'm still bored though so I'm a have to stretch for a while. Good mornight blogosphere!

There's something about 9...

2009-09-09T03:33:00.000-07:00

Today is the 9th day of September 2009. So we would have 09/09/09. So what?
Well, aside from the fact that this perfect date would not happen again, there is nothing more about this post. I just have this observation I want to share.

If we have been keeping ourselves abreast with current events lately, you can easily relate to this post. First, prior to this date, the ill-fated Superferry 9 sank at the seas of Zamboanga. Aboard the ship were more than 9 hundred passengers including children and senior citizens. Although most of them survived the incident, according to reports, there were 9 reported deaths among all the passengers.

So what am I trying to say here? Honestly, I also can't tell. I just can't set aside the number nine above all these. Well i just hope everything was a mere coincidence.

An incoming fete

2009-09-08T01:10:00.000-07:00

Just a few more days, we will be having our college day again in the university. Every department was already told to prepare for the event. If I may base it on last year's merrymaking, I could say that it is going to be a fun activity - I hope it would be this year!

If there is an event like this, various activities and shows will be staged. In our university, for example, canopies are set up on the open courts to house mouth-watering food for the occasion. On the other hand, some of the rooms are used by different organizations to set up their exhibits.

It is at this activity where you can see the creativity of the students just to boast about whatever information about their course. There are even some who would use carpet to their flooring, if not customized floor mats, just to impress not just their co-students but also the administrators and visitors.

I can't wait for the event now. If only I can pull the time.

aNaWnsMint

2009-09-04T11:14:00.000-07:00

Whoa...
Guess whAt?
After almost six months of lying low...
I can't believe I'm here again...
I mean I got the job again...
Never mind the stress and sleepless nights...
Like they said, no pain no gain.

Well that's it!
This post is completely meatless (is there such a term //_' ?)
I just wanna tell you that I'm back taking calls again.
The night is still long.
I have to bear this drowsiness I'm feeling until nine.
That's fine with me.

Good Morning bloggers!

Unable to grOw!

2009-08-27T21:31:00.000-07:00

(ewan ko lang ano relevance ng pic na to sa post ko)

I thought I had changed for the better
But it was a wishful thinking

All this time I thought I am--changed
But people don't believe
Rather, they dissuade me from continued believing

I thought I would be vindicated
But what a fool of me
Man, 'twas a make believe

I acted as if I could cope up,
as if I was getting there--slowly at least
But they are reluctant,
they bar me

What an idiot of me to assume
That wounds were healed
and gaps were bridged
When all this time,
They keep the wounds fresh
And the distance perpetual

Then out of failure I asked myself
How can we all move on?
Or how can we even grow?
When people won't allow you!

Who entertains the entertainer?

2009-08-17T07:03:00.000-07:00

If it is your job to make people laugh
You don't expect them to do just the same for you

For they expect you to entertain them
They don't care who entertains you when you're down

If it is your business to make them happy
You don't have to right to be melancholic

For they expect you to be strong always
Even if you can never be any stronger

If people want you to ease their problems
You'll have to rise from the sickbed and serve them

For they won't care if you're dying
Just set aside yourself and serve them, JUST THEM!

When you are a funnyman
You have to be funny all the time

For you can never entertain people when you cry
Or, perhaps they'll still laugh at you insensibly

People love you when you crack a joke
They don't mind you when you drop a tear

So you'll have to wear a facade sometimes
Or become the other person oftentimes

In a world where people see you ONLY as a CLOWN
They won't make notice of you however you're hurting

For they only befriend you for the smiles
But they haven't really known you at all

That is your life...
So...?
Who cares?
Anyone?

Just don't bother yourself my dear
It's all for the laughs cant' you see?

Yellow is the color of love.

2009-08-05T21:06:00.000-07:00

Unlike most of the people who are glued on television yesterday to monitor the funeral procession of former President Cory Aquino, I only had a few glimpse of the well attended cortege of our dear mother of democracy. Nonetheless, I’d like to stress that that doesn’t mean I care less for the woman in yellow whom we owe the freedom we all enjoy now.

In fact, ever since the news about her demise broke out, I was one with the whole nation who quickly said their massive prayers for her soul. I, together with all the members of our student publication, even wore yellow shirts to show our sympathy and love for Tita Cory.

And speaking of love, hundreds of thousands of people yesterday filled the streets where the convoy of Cory passed, to show their love and respect for her—forming a sea of crowd in yellow that was only seen in the funeral of our national hero Ninoy almost three decades ago. People in all walks of life poured out in the streets and battled the rain only to see our beloved president for the last time. Many of them flashed the “laban” sign while shouting Cory’s name.

It was a moving scenario not only to the immediate family of Tita Cory but for all the Filipinos as well. Our former president’s children even claimed that the crowd yesterday was even larger than her father’s funeral—that even excludes the rest of the Filipinos across the globe that were glued to their TV or radio to keep abreast with the funeral rites.

Truly, the yesterday’s scenario was similar to that of Ninoy’s funeral which has drawn millions. In 1983, people hit the streets to show their sympathy for Ninoy along with the hope that the country could move from the dark days of the Marcos regime. Yesterday, however, people from all walks of life—men, women, old, young, children, politicians, churchmen, soldiers, rich, laymen, etc. went to the streets to show their love for Cory. No more expectations, just love. Not asking anything in return, just love. And nothing but their overflowing love to the 1986 Time Magazine’s Woman of the Year who restored our democracy.

May this scenario serve as an eye-opener to us all, most importantly, to politicians to serve the people first before serving their own interest.

Cory passed away

2009-07-31T18:41:00.001-07:00

PHOTO COURTESY OF GOOGLE

As I woke up this morning, I was shocked by my classmate's text message saying Former President Cory Aquino finally joined our Creator in heaven.

For how many days now, prank text messages about Cory's death has been inconsiderately circulated so I did not believed the text message I received right away. In fact, I was still unconvinced as I wrote this post. But after reading this reports from the internet and seeing the full blown coverage of her death in national television, it was really over for our beloved Cory.

One with all the nation who are grieving for her demise, I'm extending my heartfelt condolences to the bereaved family of Tita Cory. Even to the whole nation, aside from Tita Cory's immediate family. As someone who restored the democracy of this country, Cory was well loved by us Filipinos. Her death is something that would not only grieve a family or two but the entire nation. Truly, our country has lost its mother. And this is not going to be easy for us all.

As a blogger, I am appealing to my fellow bloggers to pray for the soul of our kind mother., although rest assured that wherever she is right now, she's at ease with our Father. Goodbye our dearest President Cory and thank you for everything. We love you and you will always be remembered in our brains and in our hearts.

University Diary: The Simplicities of Life

2009-07-23T06:51:00.000-07:00

It was one rainy afternoon, I went out of the premises of the school to meet my sister. We’re supposed to have a rendezvous at five p.m. but at 5:30, she informed me thru text message that she can’t make it on time and that we’ll only meet at six. Since I had nothing else to do and I was tired that time to go back to the office, I decided to sojourn at the Ninoy Aquino Freedom Park. After all, thirty minutes isn’t that long.

As I sat down under a huge tree along the pathway of the park, I began texting my contacts in my phonebook. There was a high level of excitement as I started texting. It has been more than two months now since the last time I reloaded my cellular phone. After exhausting my fingers sending messages to all the Globe and TM subscribers in my phonebook, I anticipated a lot of replies—I was gone for a long time, so I think that gives justice to my anticipation. But what’s next to happen is quite the contrary. To my frustration, I only received five responses, and what’s more frustrating is that three of those persons only responded a bold “Hu u?” Ouch! That must have been painful and insulting right?

After that, I didn’t bother reintroducing myself to them. I realized that people interpreted my long absence differently. They thought I changed my sim card, or maybe they thought I never existed at all. Whatever there reasons maybe, I was hurt.

I checked the time. I still have to wait for 20 more minutes. That’s when I put my cellphone inside my pocket and pinned my sight to a group of youngsters chatting from afar. At first I thought they were only playing, but staring closely at them, I realized that these children ain’t playing. In just a wink of an eye, one of the children wearing a school uniform started running. Then, the rest of the group chased him. When the latter cornered the former, they encircled the poor child in uniform. From my vantage point, I could easily guess that the child in uniform is the youngest among them. Despite his height disadvantage, the poor child abruptly removed his bag and clenched his fists. Yes, he’s aware of the next scene and hell yeah, he is prepared for it.

He picked one opponent. But just when he’s about to release his valiant punch, his bigger opponent’s kick landed on his stomach first. It ended the poor child’s valor. He knelt on the grass as he found difficulty to gasp for air to breathe. The kick badly hurt him and he’s down on his knees weeping now. The poor child’s opponent immediately ran to shun revenge—if there’s any. The rest of the little goons also flew away. The poor child is alone now. There were many college students along the area but nobody dared help him. But after a couple of minutes, the child recovered and started looking for his playmates despite what they did to him.

Before I was able to observe what’s next for the poor child, a group of athletes jogging at the park grabbed my attention. It was an ordinary exercise at first glance, but if you nail your sight, it wasn’t. They were led by their coach. I didn’t know how many times they’re planning to jog the entire park, all I’m seeing is that the poor coach is not aware that some of his students were deceiving him. While their coach is religiously enjoying the jog, some of his students at the back were taking the short cut so they could finish one turn faster. None from the group noticed this scheme until their third round. When one of the joggers turned his head, alas, the scheme was revealed before his very eyes. He immediately shouted to his coach and reported his co-members' cunning act. And that’s when the coach witnessed his three students taking the short cut. Being outsmarted by his students, the angry coach immediately asked the three students to give him push-ups. After that, the rest of the students laughed over what happened to their co-athletes who can’t move a muscle after serving their punishment. The coach also laughed for he can’t believe he was outsmarted by his students. Then, they continued jogging but this time, the coach chose to be the last person so he could man his students properly.

Seeing those spontaneous incidents, I can’t help but grin after. I missed seeing those simplicities of life. It woke me up from the reality that life is as simple as how the children change moods, or even as simple as how the coach had easily forgiven his students who deceived him. It also introduced me the realization that I have been soaking myself in various works lately that I even forgot how to smile truly—I mean without hiding anything.

I was mad a while ago because I thought I was forgotten by a lot of people whom I considered important, but suddenly I realized I was just overreacting. Yes, I was just overreacting. Sometimes, we just have this tendency to treat our lives too hard only to find out that we are just overreacting. And now I’m thankful that I spent that thirty minutes of my time at the park for it led me to this realization-that life is simple. It’s only us who are making it complicated.

Sometimes, believing that we are not the shallow type of person, we dig deeper for the things that can make us happy. As a result, we overlook those simple things which if we examine closely; these are our real source of happiness. It’s just a matter of laughing over corny jokes or being contented over simple life that we see the beauty of life. It may be shallow but it’s genuine. Of course I know that for I just figured it out.

At six o’clock, I found myself sitting again, not at the park but now at the burger stand while chatting with my sister. I also found myself laughing out loud as I tell to my sister the story of how I spent the happiest thirty minutes of my life at the park. And that’s how this simple story ends.

Moving...

2009-07-14T18:48:00.000-07:00

Due to the continuous road construction in practically all the major roads in the city, I decided to move to a place at least nearer to my school so I could easily hitch a ride especially that I have early morning classes.

After my classes, I normally go to the publication’s office for my other responsibilities. Then, when I’m free, I always see to it that I could go home to rest for a while. But before I rest, I watch television programs first. It's nice to be entertained with your favorite channels or movies even if you're just alone in the house.

In the United States for example, they have Direct TV service which offers most channels in High Definition (HD). Now you can watch your favorite movies in HD or even your favorite sports, also in HD. They have more than 100 channels in HD so it's surely a must have for you.

You also need not to worry if you want to avail of their services because directv service is available in many states in the US. They have Direct TV in CA, Direct TV in NY, Direct TV in TX, and Direct TV in FL, depending on what state you belong. With the advent of these technologies, I think it's time now for us to splurge on this.

A hypochondria? Wag naman sana!

2009-07-12T01:09:00.000-07:00

With the onslaught of the ever growing cases of influenza A (H1N1) worldwide, one cannot help but worry, sometimes panicky, whenever he/she manifests few of the symptoms of the disease.

In our case for example, there have been numbers of people who suffered fever, colds, cough, headache, vomiting, etc. for the past weeks. The trend continues everyday—another one gets infected with the disease right after the other one recovered.

With everybody getting sick, (in my reckoning) only the three of us in the office who are not yet infected, so I never thought I’d be following with trend. But, just yesterday, in an unexpected situation, I had this high temperature while attending our major subject class. Moreover, Arianne also got sick. This means that only one person is not infected with the disease as of this writing.

I’d like to stress however, that aside from having a very high temperature, I do not feel anything else—no headache, no muscle pain, no cough, and no colds. Oopps! I think I sounded defensive on that right? Hehe. But honestly, I don’t think this is something serious coz I just took a shower this morning and here I am in the office again, alive and kicking. My temperature is also back to normal to boot.

Speaking of office, I think our little office is just too small for us not to inherit whatever virus anyone of us acquired or will be acquiring. If you see and hear the people barking and chilling in the office, I think you will either pity them or laugh at them because of the continued barking.

When one of my teachers found out our situation, he advised us to inform the DOH about it. But, considering the unexpected whether we’re having, and aside from the fact that it’s the season for seasonal flu to arise, we believe this is not the real virus—you all know what I’m referring.

And as for my high temperature, I’m crossing my fingers hoping that I’ll be fine tomorrow. I have this strong feeling that I’m not really sick but this is just a feeling of sickness. Maybe this is what they call hypochondria though I hate to consider this a mental disorder. In the end, I hope this isn’t just a wishful thinking.

Living life to the FOOLest!

2009-07-09T08:46:00.000-07:00

And here comes another deadline I have to beat. We have to pass our project for our Econ 131 class tomorrow. It was actually given a week ago, but like what I usually do, I didn’t started doing the project until this very hour. And instead of concentrating and focusing to finish it so I could still rest and study for my quiz tomorrow, here I am procrastinating. I even had the guts to splurge my time surfing the net and, obviously, inserted posting this blog.

But like I said, this is me. Imagine, there are only few hours left before the deadline and I haven’t even finished one yet. I have never studied for my quiz to boot. I don’t think a graduating student should act like this. But hey, I’m doing it!

I don’t think I’m loving it though. So maybe before this drowsiness I’m feeling tempts me to go to bed, I’d better stop this stupidity and finish what needs to be done. But who knows, this intermission maybe is just one way of conditioning my mind to be on my working mode. Duh! I can’t even convince myself with this reasoning. Hahaha…

So for my own benefit, I will go on with my work now. I just wanted to make a new entry, and since I already have one, I should better be going. Bye everyone. I’m going back to work before we change date.

Current mode: FRUSTRATED!

2009-07-07T21:47:00.000-07:00

He I go again. Succumbing to one of my negative traits—laziness. A week has passed since my last post and I didn’t even bother myself posting another albeit my spare time. And what’s even funnier is that I created another blog when I can’t even maintain one. Ensued, my other site is hanging and futile hitherto.

The same thing is true with my other responsibilities at home and in school most especially—they are either untouched or half done. And these are all courtesy of my laziness. Thanks to you. Haiz, when well I ever fight this trait?

Well I am not surprised really, this is me. No matter how I try to avoid this negative trait, I end up doing the same thing all over again. Maybe the old cliché is really true that “You can build a shack overnight, but to make a house that can withstand the fury of a cyclone or other calamities, it takes time.” Yeah, maybe fighting this laziness is going to be a long time struggle for me.

I think I’m just one of those persons who think they know and can do everything but we all end up frustrated at the end knowing we’re wrong. It’s so stupid of me to think I can do more when in fact I am just doing less of what I’m suppose to do. This is one severe spell cast before me and I’m caught off guard—helpless.

Goodbye Michael...

2009-06-25T21:39:00.000-07:00

It’s only this morning when I heard one of the saddest news in the music industry, Michael Jackson’s untimely death. At first I tried to joke at it believing the news is a hoax but after reading few articles about his demise I was convinced that the King of Pop’s time is really over.

I am not a die hard fan of him for his generation was earlier than mine. Nevertheless, as a music lover, I was able to listen to some of his music and liked it. And I believe a lot of bloggers were also familiar with his songs especially that his “Thriller” album is considered the best selling album of all time.

Jackson’s time maybe over but I believe his music is not and will never be over. It will always linger in the course of music industry. I don’t have much to say for this music genius but I just like to extend my sincere condolences to his bereaved family. Michael Jackson, you will always be remembered in our hearts. And let me say “Job well done!”

P.S.: isang pagkilala lamang po sa nag-iisang Michael Jackson...at kagaya ng marami, nakikiramay din po...

inutile thougts :(

2009-06-22T02:11:00.000-07:00

This is too much! I’ve had enough!
I’ve been sitting in front of this PC for a couple of hours now.
I’ve read plenty of articles and a bit certain that I understood them.
I also have few interviews with some people in our school.
And as it goes, I have considerable knowledge about what this HR 1109 by now.
But, whenever I start putting these thoughts into writing, I can’t even finish a sentence.
This is because by the time I have formed an idea, a better one comes out which left me writing then deleting then writing then deleting again and the process continues. Sigh!
It would have been fine if I do not have deadline to beat but I have.
And just by thinking solely of the pressure is already pissing me off.
Maybe I need to relax myself for a few minutes and I’ll just come back later when I’m already at my writing mode.
Nice2x. Coz this sounds like a good idea to me.
So I’m going to leave this PC now for good.
But before that, since I believe that blogsphere is a home for smart fellas, maybe you can chip in some ideas on how you understand HR 1109 or Con-ass maybe.
Coz I really have to make a special report out of this issue.
In case you’re willing to share your knowledge so I can be enlightened more on the topic, just feel free to leave it to my comment box.
Thank you and good afternoon.

Missing the old days

2009-06-18T08:09:00.000-07:00

Aside from writing, one of things I like doing is cooking. But, though I can cook a few dishes, I find it more comfortable to just eat what my mom has prepared for us. Most of the time, my mother cooks our food and the only thing I can do to help is to unplug the rice cooker when she's done.

There's nothing more satisfying for me than waking up in the morning with a cup of coffee at hand. Of course, that usually goes with a toasted garlic bread as I listen to the early morning news - a routine I always look forward whenever I'm at home.

To quench our thirst in the afternoon, my cousin would rather have our favorite fruit shake instead of splurging on soft drinks. And in the evening, a glass of wine before going to bed always wraps our day.

But nowadays, we seldom do the same thing because of our respective work. Some of my cousins now have their own family while others moved to far places. On the other hand, I make myself busy with my work in our school publication. Anyway, I still have my family to spend my quality time with.

Malaya ako!

2009-06-12T02:46:00.000-07:00

Bilang isang mamamayang Pilipino
Nakikiisa ako sa pagdiriwang
Ng ating ika-isandaan at labing isang taong
Anibersaryo ng kalayaan

Kalayaang matapang na ipinaglaban
Ng sampu ng ating mga bayani
Silang ating pinagkakautangan
Ng kalayaang ngayon ay tinatamasa

Subalit sa paglipas ng panahon
Matapos ang labing isang dekada
Ano na ang kinahinatnan
Ng kanilang ipinaglaban?

Nasaan na nga ba tayo ngayon?
Ang iba'y inaabuso ang taglay na kalayaan
Mayroon namang tila walang silbi ang kalayaan
Na hanggang ngayoy naninirahan pa rin sa dilim

Lumabas at pagmasdan ang lansangan?
Dito sa amin payapa naman
Tila walang dapat ipagsaya
Lahat may sariling mundo

Napansin kong marami ang ngayoy nakangiti
Marahil natutuwa dahil walang pasok sa opisina
O kaya naman ay doble ang sahod
Ang iba naman di alam kung bakit walang pasok

Naway kahit isang araw lamang kaibigan
Gumawa ng bagay na makabayan
Kahit paglalagay lamang ng munti nating watawat
At namnamin ang kahulugan ng ating kalayaan

Kayo...Ano sa tingin nyo?

2009-06-10T09:59:00.000-07:00

At dahil feeling ko ubos na ang dugo ko sa pagtupad sa bagong responsibilidad na kinasadlakan ko...it’s time to have a break, have a kitkat! Oh libreng endorsement pa yan ha!

Anyway, this post will be tackling on the pros and cons of the week-long postponement of classes in the tertiary level. In my viewpoint, I’d say such announcement of the concern government agency is not at all beneficial to the students of our university. Well at least lemme support this statement and lemme make this clear.

The said agency rescheduled the opening of classes in all higher education institutions because of the threat of the influenza A (H1N1) which is formerly known as swine flu. I’d say such postponement is good to those regions particularly to the schools already infected with the virus to avoid close contact ensued narrowing the infection only to very few people.

But to those areas such as ours which is utterly free from the threat brought about by A (H1N1), I’d say the postponement is futile. It merely delayed our activities and wasted the allowance our parents gave us for the week. Most especially to those students from far places who have come earlier to the city only to find out that the opening of classes has been moved. They’ve already spent a lot for their food and lodging for nothing.

Another thing is, now that there are 77 confirmed cases of A (H1N1) (as of this writing) in the country and at least four schools already have reported cases, what’s next? Are they going to reschedule the opening of classes again? I’m crossing my fingers hoping that’s not going to happen.

But, I’m not the saying that the move of the government is wrong, I'm just airing my little voice. They should have left the discretion to postpone classes to the heads of the universities and colleges especially to the A (H1N1) free places.

Well, that’s just my opinion. What about you? Are you or are you not in favor of the postponement of classes? Feel free to share your comments.

Sana naman may sense tong iniepal ko. Ewan ko. Para kasing naubos nang katinuan ko sa dami ng trabahong kinailangan kong tapusin. Pasensya na kayo ha. //_'

First Day Prank!

2009-06-07T19:11:00.001-07:00

Una nang ideneklara ng Commission on Higher Education (CHED) na suspendido na muna ang pasukan sa kolehiyo ngayong linggo dahil sa umanoy banta ng A (H1N1). Ibig sabihin, June 15 pa talaga magbubukas ang klase para sa college students (sana naman hindi na nila isususpend for the second time kasi baka ma-extend na naman ang pasukan at pati graduation maging May na rin. Haiz, wag mo naman ipahintulot Lord please.)

Anyway, kahit na meron na ngang announcement ang CHED, I decided na pumunta pa rin sa eskwelahan to see for myself. Akalain mong hindi ininda ng mga katulad kong mag-aaral ang deklarasyon ng CHED. Siksikan pa rin sa gate ng university sa sobrang dami ng estudyanteng pumasok sa mismong araw. At least confident naman akong pumasok sa school kahit walang pasok kasi di lang naman ako ang matigas ang ulo. Marami kami kaya ang saya-saya.

Alas siete ng umaga ang first subject ko pero dumating ako ng alas siete y medya. Syempre feeling ko naman walang guro na magpapakita so ok lang na late muna sa ngayon. At gaya ng inaasahan, wala ni anino ng titser namin. Pero andun ang ilan sa mga klasmeyts ko. Para naman super tagal naming di nagkita at sobra kung magkamustahan. Oo nga't bakasyon. Eh ano ngayon, isang buwan din naman kaming magkasama sa iisang bahay for our internship. So ayon, matapos ang kamustahan at plastikan, haha, nagdesisyon kaming pagtripan ang mga bagong mukha sa unibersidad namin.

Magtanong kaba naman kung nasaan ang College of Arts and Sciences na building eh andun na mismo kami sa gusali. In fairness, maayos naman kaming sinagot ng mga inosenteng freshmen na ang CAS building pala ay ang mismong gusaling kinatatayuan namin. "Really? Thank you miss ha..." may mga ganun pang drama after mambiktima.

Patuloy kaming naglakad-lakad at habang padaan-daan lang kami sa mga lounges, eto naman ang trip namin. "Miss asa dapit ng TBA nga room?" (Miss san ba dito yung TBA na room?) o ayan with free translation pa yan ha. Todo pigil naman ang mga tinanong namin na magpigil sa pagtawa at sinagot kami ng maayos. "To be arranged paman ng TBA sir." (To be arranged pa po yung TBA sir). Meaning wala pa raw silid para dito.

"Di ba andun yung mga kursong Accountancy at Business Administration?" tanong ko ulit in our dialect.

Baka CBA po yung ibig nyong sabihin hindi TBA? sagot nya.

"Ha? Eh ano ba yung CBA miss tsaka how does it differ sa TBA?" tanga-tangahan ko namang tinuran sa kanya.

"College of Business and Accountancy po kasi yung CBA kaya andun yung sinasabi nyong mga kurso habang yung TBA naman eh to be arranged pa ang ibig sabihin." sagot niya na halatang nakukulitan na kasi kanina pa panay ang tingin sa kasama niya na atat na atat ng umalis pero di naman ako maiwan kasi nga "wala pa daw kasi akong alam".

Sa huli naman eh tinuro nya sa akin kung san yung CBA. Salamat miss. Kung nagbabasa ka ng post na to, sorry na talaga. Eh apat na taon na ako sa unibersidad na ito kaya alam ko lahat ng pasikot-sikot. Trip lang talaga namin kaya pasensya na.

Marami-rami din ang nabiktima namin bago kami nakaramdam ng gutom. Hahaha. Mukhang nakarma ang mga gago. So we decided to go out na nga sa school at nang makakain.

Pagdating namin ng gate, anak ng tipaklong, kumpulan na naman ang mga students kasi nga may instruction daw na di na muna palalabasin ang mga mag-aaral. Huh? Baket kaya? Eh unang una, wala namang pasok ngayon!? Hay na bad trip tuloy kami.

Sa ngayon ay kasalukuyan pa naming inaalam...oopps wait a minute...kapapasok lang na balita...pinahintulutan na umanong lumabas ang mga students. Hehe

Before you vote...

2009-06-06T08:26:00.000-07:00

Before I went to school this afternoon, I was attracted to watch a part of the ANC Leadership Forum for a few minutes.

Yup, it was just for a few minutes.
I decided to leave when the program started to become a comedy show.
I don’t know how others see it but for me it was a one-woman show.

The politicians aspiring to become the next president who were there were Senator Loren Legarda, Makati Mayor Jejomar Binay, Former President Joseph Estrada, and Metro Manila Development Authority Chairman Bayani Fernando.

At first, it was a bit interesting when they disclosed what their plans are for the first 100 days of their administration if ever if they get elected.
In fairness, all four of them have good answers.

But as the show went on, some of the guests made me lose my enthusiasm to further watch the show.
When the forum was opened, more questions were asked.
And again, the four answered the questions.
But as to whether or not their answers were right, that’s another story.

The way I see it, I think only one or two of them have answered the questions correctly. I’m not sure if they are just evasive or what but some are really far out.

Senator Legarda was convincing with all her answers.
She finished her answers briefly and concisely and does it in less than 1 minute and 30 seconds.

Mayor Binay also has good answers.
But he always has something to say about Makati in almost all his answers.
“Sa Makati…” and all the rest of his line.
There’s nothing wrong with boasting what you have accomplished in one city, but come on, there’s more to the Philippines than just Makati.
Let us not forget that there are more than 7, 000 islands in the Philippines with more than 90 million Filipinos.

While Former Pres. Estrada never failed to keep the audiences laughing.

I believe Chairman Fernando also did the same.
But I admired his courage to publicly announce his intention of running as a presidential candidate for the upcoming election next year.
(Di tulad ng iba na kesyo di raw tatakbo pero pagdating ng eleksyon lulunukin lahat ng sinabi.)
Also, I will never forget when he said he’s aware of the good and bad moves of the current administration but when asked by Cheche Lazaro what those bad moves are, he merely said “Don’t get me into trouble.”

These are all that I remember from that Leadership Forum.

In the end, I would give credits to all of them for showing up and answering the questions.

Though what they have said are just words and we don’t know if they can put that into deeds but watching them in the forums such as this is one good start for us to know them before we cast our votes.

I would further say that it is important for us youth, to watch these kinds of shows or other similar activities so that we would somehow get a little knowledge as to who deserves to lead us come 2010.

They say we are the hope of the future so it is only proper that we should be involved in any activities that concern us and the entire nation as a whole. And one of these is the upcoming election. Lets us prove to them that we care, we are smart, and that our votes can never be bought. Let us scrutinize these politicians for only then can we become confident as whom are we going to give our votes.

I’m not preaching. I’m just concern. And I’m just expressing my opinions.

That's just the way it is...

2009-06-05T02:42:00.000-07:00

I’ve never been a book loving person all my life.
I haven’t even read a single fiction book when I was in high school.
Not until I forced myself to read the book I love you by Gordon Martinborough four years ago (if I remember it right).
The book was about handling marriage and other stuffs related to that (tama ba?).
I didn’t even know why I got interested in the book when I was completely naïve of those things then (hanggang ngayon pa rin naman ah!).
But I guess it’s those lines in the book that somehow taught me life’s lessons and realities.
I believe that the author was right when he said that the hardest job in the world is to decide.
True! (Bea, pahiram muna ng expression mo. Tutal wala ka na rin magagawa eh!)

Today, once again, the hardest job was cast upon my shoulders.
And I just hate it so much!
It was absolutely the hardest thing in the world, and I have the hardest feeling right now.
I feel so treacherous, dishonest, liar and all the synonyms of the word.

My high school friends, with my initiation, decided so have our class reunion today.
Everything was planned.
In fact, it took us more than two months to prepare for the awaited event.
I was, I mean, we were so convinced that it’ll surely be a day of fun for us.
We update each other almost everyday to make sure majority of our classmates will join.
We even meet twice a week to discuss about the event.
A week before it, we were at least 80 percent certain of the plan to be realized.

Then, here comes the day.
June 5, everybody started texting me at 9 am.
I had a feeling I can’t come so I did not bother responding.
They called me an hour later saying they're ready to go.
But where am I? (I won’t say an alibi)
I said still have to go to school to finish something and I will just follow after my job is done.
But hours have passed and the dark’s creeping (hapon pa lang kasi nang isulat ko to).
Ni anino ko, wala sa reunion namin.
I can’t come. I just knew it!

Pero anong klase akong kaibigan?
Ganito nga ba ang isang kaibigan?
Honestly, I can’t blame them if they want to curse me at the very moment.
Who will be happy with what I’ve done?
Life is always about making choices.
I chose not to go with them.
I went to school rather to do my obligation.
But they will not understand it and I don’t think they will try to understand it anyway!
Whatever my excuse is, the bottom line is “hindi ako tumupad sa usapan!”

And I hate myself for doing it.
Life doesn’t always go according to plan.
There are things that surprise us everyday.
Minsan kailangan mo lang talagang pumili kung alin ang mas matimbang.
They say that all work and no play makes a dull person.
But life is not all about fun. (ok lang naman magrelaks kung wala kanang gagawin diba?)
We have to come up with a mature decision everyday of our life.
That is a universal fact that no one is exempted.
It may not always be favorable to others, but you just have to stand by it.
In my case, I decided to prioritize my obligation.
I thought could follow later, but I was wrong.
And I’d like to apologize!
Please take time to understand guys. Thank you.

Something New

2009-06-04T04:23:00.000-07:00

While I still can't think of anything new yet for my new post,
Akalain mong nasikmura ko pang gumawa ng isa na namang blog.
Yup. I can't even regularly update this site, dinagdagan pa ng isa.
Hehe. Paxenxa na. Uso kasi ang maraming blogs eh.

Pangarap ko kasing gumawa
Ng literary works.
So sana naman maliwanagan ang yutakz ko
At kahit isang poem o kaya short story ay makagawa ako.

Ito ay pinamagatan kong Kabos nga pangisip.
Sa mga nagno-nosebleed sa meaning nyan.
Palagay ko "Dukhang pag-iisip" yata ang katumbas nyan
Hindi ko lang tiyak. hehe

Kung may spare time pa kayo,
Sana ay makabisita at tumuloy po kayo doon.
Since ngayon ko lang siya binuksan (parang tindahan lang, hehe)
Kaya wala pa siyang laman.

Salamat sa panahon.
See you there bloggers!

seconds, hours, so many days...

2009-05-25T04:46:00.000-07:00

akalain mong 2 months na pala...

as in dalawang mahahabang buwan din pala akong namahinga sa blogosperyo...

akalain mo yun...?

paxenxa...paxenxa...at paxenxa talaga ng marami senyo...

gagawa kasi sana ako ng post para magpaalam na pansamantagal muna akong

mawawala sa sirkulasyon sa kadahilanang tutulak ako sa bulubunduking bahagi

ng "Queen City of the South", eh kaso kinailangan na naming umalis...

kaya di nako nakapagpaalam...

paxenxa na talaga ng marami...

na-miss ko kayong lahat...

haiz...(deep sigh!)

pero ang importante eh andito na naman ako...

at wala kayong magagawa kundi sundin ito, kapag tumibok ang puso, wala kana,

siguradong...ay kanta pala yun...hehehe

basta...

welcome back to me...

sa lahat ng naka-miss saken...

wag kayong mag-alala,

same thing here...

God Bless po...

Escape to Siquijor

2009-03-20T08:57:00.000-07:00

This post is a bit late already because the adventures we had actually took place more than a month ago. But since I was still a lost blogger that time, I wasn’t able to post it thereafter.

With my newly-renovated site and with my gusto back on its pinnacle again, it’s only proper for me to start posting the things I have in mind before I totally lose track of them all.

These are actually pictures of our escapade in the beautiful island of Siquijor. We’ve been there for three days to shoot our documentary project that tackles on the mysteries enveloping the island. That’s actually a requirement in one of our major subjects in the university.

It was really tiresome for we have to climb mountains just to interview people who are believed to be doing the so called sorcery or kulam or barang. Not to mention the fears we had because of the creepy things we experienced firsthand. Likewise, the trip was kinda expensive for we have to worry about our food, fare, dvds, and of course a place where we could stay.

But above it all, there was so much fun, though we’re only five in the group. It also gave us the chance to unwind and escape from the stress we have been bearing since the semester started. (Sobrang demanding na kaya ng course namin, kung alam nyo lang. Buti na lang may mga ganitong chance kasi kahit papano nakakarelaks kami at timeout muna sa naiwang assignments)

If given the chance to do it again, I won’t have second thought. (Go pa rin ako!) For now, I can’t say yet if we have really gotten what we need for we are still editing the video materials we gathered. Nevertheless, I’m positive na magiging maganda naman yung istoryang gagawin namin. Iaa-upload ko agad dito when we’re done.

In the meantime, here are some of the pictures of our Siquijor escapade.

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Sakay ng motorsiklong inarkila pa namin ay tumungo kami sa bayan ng San Antonio kung saan daw nakatira ang ilan sa mga bantog na mambabarang o mangkukulam sa isla. Syempre kelangan namin silang makapanayam!

Sa wakas ay narating din namin ang kweba kung saan ginagawa ni Mang Jose ang kanyang pagkukulam.

Ito yung bungong ginagamit ni Mang Jose sa kanyang pambabarang.

Ito yung damit at nasa ilalim naman yung tsinelas na pag-aari ng kanyang binarang. Kwento pa niya na isa sa mga paraan niya e pinapausokan niya yung gamit ng ipinapabarang sa kanya kasama nung gamit niyang bungo.

Ang susunod na dalawang larawan naman ay ang kuha mula sa interview kay Manong Peri, isang shaman (mananambal).

Ito naman yung kuha mula sa aktwal na pagriritwal ni Manong Tuting ng kanyang barang (sorcery).

Di naman siguro siya sinapian no? Wag kayong mag-alala, kagrupo ko yan, si Bea. Mahilig lang talaga siyang gumawa ng eksena. In fairness, pwede tong pose na 'to. Tingin nyo?

Alam kong sUper hULi na peRu ihahaboL ko pa riN to paRa kay miSs yANaH...

Sa nalalapit mong pag-uwi, naway maging maayos ang lahat.

a new beginning

2009-03-18T11:39:00.000-07:00

I have been inactive in blogosphere for weeks now. I still can’t find an excuse, I just suddenly ran out of passion. I don’t know…I mean, I love blogging and I love the people here.

But lately, I can no longer feel the same enthusiasm I had before. I found myself gradually detaching from this world where I met interesting and loving people, despite the varying interest and intellect.

I realized that the lesser I make a post, the more I become distant from you. So I decided to renovate my site and eyed for another start. I hope that this new home will inspire to me become an active blogger again and rekindle the fire I once have.

I already missed the people here and I can’t wait to be interacting with you again guys.
Sana lang meron pa akong babalikan. At sana tuloy-tuloy na ‘to.

Pahabol sa Valentine's...

2009-02-14T10:55:00.000-08:00

LOVE SUCKS!

It’s been two hours now since the love potion brought about by the Valentine’s Day has subsided. I’m trying real hard to be cheerful though hours before the date changed. But I still succumbed to this negative emotion hitherto. I don’t exactly know what I’m feeling right now—don’t even know if I’m supposed to feel this way. I just feel so stupid. Yes, that would be more appropriate for now.

This stupidity is beyond my plans for the heart’s day. It hasn’t even paid a visit in my subconscious. Bearing this madness over someone special is truly unexpected. But it is now futile to cry over spilled milk, as the old adage goes. Maybe it’s time for these two individuals to take their separate ways.

Once again, I have proven how love destroys the sanity of a clever person. (Please set aside the notion that I’m bragging myself on the last two words of the preceding sentence.) No matter how hard a person tries not to be vulnerable from the weakening powers of love, he’s still caught off guard sometimes—and you can count me in!

They say that the most important thing that should be present in a relationship is TRUST. Yes, trust. This five-letter-word which is very precious for others that is why they hesitate to give it wholeheartedly to their partners, however strong the feeling is. Nonetheless, you really have to give trust if want to be trusted. And so to speak, by all means, I have given mine.

But what if at the end of the day, you will find out that the person you have trusted does not really deserve the trust? And more than that, what if that person utterly destroyed the trust? How would you react? Can you forgive the offender? Of course not right?

Now in my viewpoint, my initial reaction would be to despise the person—forgiveness may come later as time goes by.

However, what if you still love the person? Is love without trust enough to keep you holding on? I believe that is stupidity but I can’t categorize myself afar from it as well. Is this really what others call “falling in love”? Do we really have to fall in love? Why don’t we climb? Now that’s hilarious! I’m going out of the topic now.

Well anyway, I don’t want to put more torture to myself. At least now, I have escaped from the “painful” stage and I think I’m doing it great—yeah, great, great pretender.

I just want to curse her. Slap her. Do some tongue-lashing. And most importantly, hate her. Hate her today, tomorrow and in perpetuity. But, what I vehemently hate now is the fact that I can’t hate her enough despite what she’s done. And this keeps me a stupid person.

LOVE SUCKS!

Rain rain go away!

2009-02-07T18:39:00.000-08:00

Gusto ko sana magpost din ng entry tungkol sa love kasi halos lahat ng bloggers ngayon ganun ang tema. Palibhasa ilang tulog na lang, araw na ng mga puso. Hay naku mapupuno na naman ang mga hotels at magiging todo expensive din ang flowers for this occasion.

Kaya lang di pa ako makaisip ng pang-Valentine post eh. But I think that would come later. In the meantime, kwento ko muna ang dalawang araw na patuloy na pagbuhos ng ulan (buti na lang ngayon at nagpakita na si bespren araw) na nagresulta sa grabeng pagbaha dito sa City of Gentle People. As in grabe. Kalahati ng mga dumaraang bus ang lubog sa baha (ewan ko lang kung may biyahe pa). Samantalang ang daming bahay at buhay ang tinangay ng rumaragasang tubig baha. Hindi ko man alam ang eksaktong mga nangyari kasi nakamukmok lang ako sa opisina habang nakamasid sa pagbuhos ng ulan. Kelan kaya mauubos ang pagtulo nito? Sana isang buhusan na lang para wala ng ulan, kaso parang ayaw talagang tumigil. Bad trip kasi brown out, pinapapak tuloy ako ng lamok.

Di naman siya (ulan) malakas kaso nga lang eh continuous ang buhos. Syempre dahil dun, lalambot ang lupa at magiging vulnerable sa flashfloods. Nang minsan humina ang ulan, lumabas kami saglit para bumili ng makakain. Ay oo di ko nga pala nasabing dumating yung dalawang kong kasamahan sa opisina na wala rin alam sa mga pangyayari dahil nagshoot sila ng commercial for school competition. Buti na lang dumating sila kasi kahit brown out eh ok na rin kasi pwede kaming magkwentuhan (tama ba yun?).

Anyway tuloy ang story, so paglabas namin (dalawa kami nung classmate ko) di syempre basing-basa kami kasi apaw sa tuhod ang tubig eh. Elevated pa nga yung dinaanan namin. Pati national highway di nakaligtas. Traffic dahil di na halos makaabante yung ibang sasakyan kasi namamatayan ng makina na gitna ng daan. Kaya ayon sina mamang pulis nakabantay salakay.

Nung makatawid na kami, nakita namin si David (classmate ko rin) na half naked kasi daw nahulog siya sa isang manhole habang naglalakad. Basa lahat ng gamit nya—cellphone, pera at gamit sa skwela. May pasok kasi kami every Saturday. Kwento pa niya, di raw muna siya makakauwi kasi gumuho yung bridge sa lugar nila. Syempre walang kahit anong uri ng sasakyan ang makakadaan. Naawa talaga ako sa mga nastranded dahil sa baha.

Di naman kasi nakakaligtas ang lugar namin tuwing may bagyo, peru hindi ordinaryo dito ang makaranas ng ganito kagrabeng pagbaha. As in lahat ng lansangan lubog sa tubig baha. Ewan ko lang kung may uuwian pa ako ngayon, sana naman di tinangay ng ago sang bahay namin (I’m crossing ma fingas).

Well anyway, kinabukasan narinig na lang ni Bong ang bali-balitang ang dami daw namatay sa dalawang araw na pag-ulan. Mga bahay na kinain ng baha at mga buhay na natagpuan na lamang na palutang lutang sa dagat. Grabe talaga.
So mga nangyari, ewan ko lang kung appropriate bang gumawa ako ng Valentine post. Marahil ito na muna. Naku pasensya na at napahaba ang kwento ko. Salamat sa pagbabasa. Naway patnubayan tayo ni Lord lagi. Ingat!

I'm Back. I'm Sorry.

2009-01-26T20:08:00.000-08:00

Please allow me to start this entry by asking apologies for my long absence in blogosphere. I’m so sorry guys. I know I’m guilty. I can’t find good reasons so I won’t dare say an alibi. It’s not that I do not have plans of posting blog entries anymore; in fact, I had composed some for the past weeks but none of them were posted on my site. Again all I have are lame excuses. I cannot justify my shortcomings. I didn’t even have the time to visit my site as well. The more I prolonged my absence, the more I found myself detached from the world that has given me the privilege of interacting with wonderful people like you guys. And I’m working on it so I would be back in full swing again. I love blogging and I believe I still have the passion in me to continue it.

With the same humility, I would like to thank those persons who encouraged me to update my blogsite and be back for good. I won’t go mentioning names anymore. I just have to say thank you for the visit and the greetings. I hope I would be able to update my site and interact with you again as frequent as before. It’s good to be back. I missed you guys.

Hahaha. Sa lahat ng naka-miss sa akin, salamat ng marami guys, tats na tats ako. At dun naman sa hindi, ok lang kasi di ko rin kayo na-miss. Lols. Basta naniniwala akong “We are bloggers and therefore we should be blogging.” Mabuhay!

Isang PasaSALAMAT...

2008-12-19T11:40:00.000-08:00

Kahit alam kong medyo huli na ‘tong goodbye post ko, itutuloy ko pa rin habang hindi pa nagpapalit ng taon. I’ll make this an acknowledgment entry before I succumb to the inevitable vacation brought about by the holidays. Kailangan ko lang magpasalamat ng marami sa mga taong tumangkilik sa aking blog. Kahit di kasing lalim ng Pacific Ocean ang contents nitong site ko e nagtiyaga pa rin kayong dumalaw, magbasa at magkomento. Di ko man kayo ma-mention lahat, basta SALAMAT TALAGA NG MARAMI SA INYONG LAHAT NA NAGING BAHAGI NG BLOG KO. At syempre dun na rin sa mga nagbabalak na maging bahagi. Welcome kayong lahat na pagtiyagaan ang entries kong minsan walang laman, minsan pwede na.

Syempre meron din akong bibigyan ng espesyal na pasalamat dahil sila yung tipong mga early birds sa blog ko. Kum baga sila yung unang mga nakabasa ng mga kabalbalan at kadramahan ng aking layp.

Unang-una, salamat muna sa taong nag-encourage sa akin sampu ng aking mga kasamahan sa publication na maglipat bahay at i-transfer lahat ng blogs namin sa blogosphere. At yan ay walang iba kundi and may ari ng blog na itago na lang naten sa initials na Stupidly Perfect. Tama ang inyong nabasa, yun nga, at produkto iyan ng matambok na pag-iisip ni Bong. Salamat ng super dami Friend for introducing us this world. Syempre sa lahat din ng aking kasamahan sa TN, di ko kayo iisa-isahin pa dahil sobrang dami nyo (baka abutan ako ng boss namen e di pa naman pwedeng mag-internet pag nasa trabaho…sumasaglit lang naman ako kasi alam nyo na than when the cat is away, the mouse is alone kaya go go go!).

Basta nung hinalungkat ko ang inaamag ko nang mga posts e eto ang unang pitong pangalan na nakiepal sa posts ko.

Unang ratsada..tan…tanan…nanan…we have Paperdoll. Tingnan mo nga naman ineng, ikaw pala ang unang babae sa aking buhay este blog. Di nyo na itatanong dahil mag-isa lang naman ako dito sino nga bang magtatanong no? Ewan. Basta bagu pa man ako ginanahan na gumawa ng entries sa blogsperyo e nagbabasa na ako ng mga posts ni Manika. Super sasaket ang panga mo sa katatawa pag siya na ang rumampa. Dahil nga jan, na-inspire akong karerin na rin ang blogging. Bata pa lang ako, idol na kita PD, at hanggang ngayon idol pa rin kita kaya sana naman magparamdam ka na. Kung ayaw mo di na kita pipilitin, siguro maaga kang nagbakasyon. Ingat ka na lang ha. Let us know agad pan nanjan ka na kasi miss ka na namin. Tnx PD.

Sumunod kay PD ay walang iba kundi si Ate JosHy. Ang itinuturing kong ate sa blogsperyo. Siya lang naman ang nasa likod ng mga katangi-tanging posts sa Mundong Parisukat. Napakahusay nya talagang magsulat as in wala ka talagang di babasahin. Kaya naman nagtayo kami ni Dhianz ng fanz club kung saan si Dee ang pres, ako ang vice-p at si master ron naman ang treasurer. Oo tatatlo pa lang kaming myembro sa ngayon kaya naman nanawagan ako sa lahat ng Joshians na sumali sa fanz club at ng makarami kami. Hehe…back to you ate Joshy. Salamat talaga ha for giving me the chance to have a sister like u kahit dito lang sa blogsphere. It means so much to me. Hay naku ewan ko lang pagnawala kayo ni Dee sa Blogger, siguro mawawalan na ren ako ng gana. Kaya naman walang mawawala sa aten ha. Lab u te. Ingats ka jan sa inyo at hihintayin ko ang pagbabalik mo.

Pangatlong nagbigay pansin sa post ko ay si Saling-Pusa. Tama, bagu niya tinanggap yung suhestyon ni Bong na Pusang-Gala nalang ang gamitin niya dahil sa mga paglalakbay nya, e matagal na pala siyang visitor ng aking blog. Thank you so much PG. Tats na tats talaga ako sayo parekoy. Sana hanggat nanaisin mong mag-blog ay patuloy pa ren tayong magkakakilala sa blogsphere. Happy Holidays PG. Meow! Meow!

At ang susunod na dalawa ay ang mga kasamahan ko sa TN. Sina Mary Narvasa at Ambrucia na mas kilala sa initials na Cathy Guilaran. Oops! Initials lang ba yung nasulat ko Tat? Sorry ha, medyo bangag lang. Wag mo na lang sabihin na real name mo yun, lolz. Sila ang mga nilalang na ikinulong sa katawan ni Eba peru daig pa si Malakas kung umasta. Lalaki talaga sila peru sa tulong ng mga doctor ay naging matagumpay naman ang kanilang operasyon. Hahaha. Site ko naman to kaya sorry na lang mga girls. Diko naman kayo sinisiraan e, tinutulungan ko pa nga kayong lumabas sa lungga nyo. Hehehe…lolz…jowk lang mga kafated. Thanks din ha sa mga comments nyo sa page ko. Kahit alam kong ginagawa nyo lang yun para magcomment din ako sa blogs nyo. Hahaha. Honestly, salamat girls and I lab u both also.

Ngayon naman ay pumunta tayo sa susunod na pwesto. Siya lang naman ang presidente ng Joshian fanz club, none other than Dhianz. Sila ni ate jOshy ang dalawa sa mga importanteng tao sa mundo ko dito sa Blogger. Dee salamat sa lahat ha. Sana matagpuan mo nga ang iyong sarili sa gagawin mong soul sourching. Hahaha. Kung ano man yan, alam ko naman na kakayanin mo yan Dee kasi sobra ang kapit at tiwala mo kay Lord. Tama yan. Liliban din nga pala ako for a while kaya wala munang hahawak sa fanz club. Peru tama ka kasi whatever happens solid na tayo kay ate jOshy e. Basta nag-comment na ren ako sa post mo dEe. Atdun na yung ibang nais kong sabihin. Antayan tayo ha. God Bless You Always. Salamat talaga!

At syempre para makompleto na sila, eto na si master Ron Turon. Siya lang naman ang may busilak na kalooban na gumawa ng mga libreng disenyo ng layout for your blogs. Tulad nga ng sabi ni Dee kelangan mo lang sumipsip/magpasipsip ng konti kay master Ron. Salamat ng marami master sa pagtangkilik mo sa blog ko mula pa noon. Idol talaga kita kasi ang galing din ng mga posts mo. Happy Holidays Master. Ingats po lagi.

Kung merong mga nauna, meron din mga bagong dating sa tumtutugon naman sa akong blog kaya Arigatou sa inyong lahat. Malilimutan ko ba naman sina sir Pajay na napaka-informative ang mga sinisulat...thank you for sharing you ideas sir; ang bottomless na kapeng gawa ni Dylan Dimaubusan tnx miss Dy; salamat din kay Aian ni laging nagpapalit ng layout peru super dami na ng post mukhang aabot na yata sa 200 entries lahat; syempre kay Kosa din na at kay Pusang-Gala, salamat mga parekoy; thank you so much din kina Ms Donna, Mike Avenue, Zeb, Cyndirellaz, Chyng, Pio Jun Babia, Marco Paolo, The Dong, Krisha, Krisha, Bert Loi, Ewik, ExtraOrdinary Noriel, Gian Carlo, Caroline, Perfectly Imperfect, Royalty Ambisyoso, at yung mga nasa blogroll ko na nakilimutan kong banggitin: , Maya, at sayo Flor. Salamat din ng marami sa aking mga followers: Ms Donna, Bert Loi, Gian Carlo, Kosa, Zeb, Pusang-Gala, Ate JosHy, at Rina.

Salamat sa lahat at sa susunod pa. Mabuhay tayong mga bloggers!

Medyo mawawala lang ako for a while kasi bakasyon na e. Kita kitz sa inyong lahat pagkatapos ng holidays ha. ciao!

R E U N I O N

2008-12-16T03:50:00.000-08:00

I’m supposed to make an entry about the recent activities we had in the publication. However, since I know that most of my colleagues who are also bloggers will do the same, I will deviate from the topic and have this one in lieu. But I will also be posting my experience soon.

For the time being, I will narrate my reunion with the MAN I haven’t visited for the longest time. The MAN I missed so much. The MAN I owe a lot. The MAN who gave me life and the MAN exalted by everyone. That MAN is none other than GOD.

Just like everybody else who believes in Him, completing or at least attending a couple of Aguinaldo masses for nine consecutive mornings is a must before celebrating His birth. In short, I, together with my two friends, managed to woke up as early as 3 o’clock in the morning to attend the very first Aguinaldo mass of the year.

It was a fulfilling experience for me to have finally wandered again in His house after a long time of negligence. I was excited to see Him again and feel His presence in my spiritual life. Indeed he made it. There’s nothing so fulfilling than having the feeling that God is with you; that He’s willing to accept you again regardless of your sins, lapses and shortcomings; that He loves you (I was sure of that because I felt it); and that He does not judge you superficially because He knows what you feel, He knows what’s in your heart.

The duration of the mass seemed insufficient for me to confess everything I have inside to Him. Off we went to the neighboring town and prayed to San Antonio de Padua. He is the Patron Saint of the people in Sibulan. People from different places come together every 13th of the month to attend the mass and light candles after. This has become a tradition for many years and we are not exempted to that. (I know paragraph is kinda not necessary but since I am narrating, I hope you won’t mind me including it.)

The mass was over when we arrived so we just lighted candles. I took the opportunity to converse with God and managed to say all that I have to say at the moment. I felt so cleansed right after.

We went back to the city with satisfaction in my heart. I know it’s not enough so I will be striving everyday to make it up to Him. I won’t be making a promise but insofar as the circumstance will permit, I will really try my best to finish the nine mornings. Not because it’s a tradition; not because I want my wish to be granted; not to become religious in eyes of the people around; but rather to serve a deeper purpose which only me and God know.

I will also be taking this chance to answer the tag passed to me by Ms Donna. Maraming salamat miss dOnna. Ngayon ay masusubukan na naman ang galing ko sa pagdarasal. Hay sana marunong ako. Di bale na, sige ganito nalang:

Mahabaging Panginoon, naway gabayan Mo Po ang sino mang uupo bilang susunod na pangulo ng Republika ng Pilipinas. Huwag Nyo Pong ipahintulot na maghari ang kasakiman niya sa kwarta upang gamitin ang kaban ng bayan para sa pansariling kapakanan. Gabayan Nyo rin Po kami na makapaghalal ng nararapat na pangulo. Hindi po namin kailangan ng henyong pangulo sapagkat maaaring gamitin niya lamang ito upang lituhin ang sambayanan. Bagkus ay kailangan lang po namin ng pangulong malinis ang kalooban at malinis din ang hangarin para sa ating bansa at sa mamamayan. Hindi na po kami aasang yayaman pa ang ating bayan dahil iyan po ay imposible. Ang sa amin na lang po ay malutas ang kaguluhan sa pagitan ng ating gobyerno at ng mga rebeldeng NPA, Abu Sayyaf at ibang pang mga terorista upang wala ng magbuwis ng buhay. At kahit papaano Po ay kumunti ang bilang ng mga taong walang kain at dumadi naman ang bilang ng mga taong may trabaho. Maraming Salamat Po. Amen.

Ngayon naman ay ipapasa ko ang tag na 'to kina: Bong, Yanz Froglet, Dhianz, Ate Joshy, Mary Narvasa, Joel Ambisyoso, Kosa, Pusang-Gala, at sa lahat ng may gusto pakikuha na lang.

Ang Pasko Ay Sumapit

2008-12-12T14:32:00.000-08:00

Christmas is just around the corner. With only 12 remaining days to go before the highly anticipated occasion invades the world, everyone has their own plan how to celebrate it. We can see early shoppers crowding the mall to splurge on their bonuses and 13th month pay, while others are contented shopping in bargain stores that have become pervasive in the country. On the other hand, there are some who opted to spend their week-long vacation in some of the best beaches, resorts, vacation houses, and other tourist spots found in Pinas.

Everyone already has plans this yuletide season but not me. I haven’t really troubled myself thinking what to do this Christmas. I mean not yet hitherto. But that doesn’t mean I’m not excited or at least looking forward to this once a year chance. I will be enjoying this Christmas, that’s for sure. But I aint have plans yet. I just let the invitations and surprises come like I was a child thinking he won’t be receiving a single present this Christmas but was overjoyed when gifts come in bundles courtesy of his godfathers.

Hey that is exactly what’s happening to me lately. Early this month, we have had our Christmas party in one of the beaches in the city for a certain organization I’m affiliated with. It wasn’t planned actually but it was a great fun. Just the other day, I was told by my classmates that we will be holding our Christmas party next week at the residence of my classmate which is less than an hour drive from the city. (That would be cool and I’m looking forward to that.) Later that day, we had our second “kris kringle” (as how we call it in the publication where we’re told to bring something long and hard presents so we could exchange it with our colleagues). I was glad when I received my present. (I won’t tell what that is but it’s surely useful for me).

Yesterday evening, two of my friends and co-bloggers in the persons of Bong and extraordinary Noriel celebrated their birthdays at the publication office. It was a surprised dinner for the celebrators and the staffs. We were lucky because a former senior writer of the school paper came to the office to personally greet Bong and chipped in along with the others so that we enjoyed the foods we had later that night. Afterwards, the atmosphere became a happy place for everyone. We rehearsed for our day-long-activity tomorrow which includes outreach program for the orphans at Friendship Homes followed by share-a-meal program for street children at the boulevard.

We also have our gift giving to the survivors of fire in Bgry. Taclobo (one of the barangays in the city). We will be singing Christmas carols to the families before we give away our little presents. Since we are not singers, we really have to rehearse before spoiling the enthusiasm of our recipients. (lolz) The practice went well for us though not all of us can reach the notes properly. What matters is the spirit of giving so there’s nothing to worry.

When I entered my work place few minutes after we changed date, my supervisor met me with folded papers and told me to get one for our exchanging of gifts. I was surprised to know that we will be having our party next week. I’m not aware of it really because I’m just working once a week.

I thought it would be another blue Christmas for me but I was damn wrong. With all the upcoming parties I will be attending, it’s gonna be a happy one. But more than the parties, the act of sharing the spirit God’s birthday to the less privileged and spending quality time with your family cannot be traded with any material stuffs in the world. Merry Christmas everyone!

Mga Echus ng Layp (da fuLL bersyon)

2008-12-09T04:32:00.000-08:00

Hai naku miss ko nang mag-post ng Tagalog kaya susubakan ko uling makaisa.
Medyo matagal na rin kasing wala akong new entry eh, kaya ito na muna.
Hay bilib talaga ako sa mga certified bloggers na kayang magpost ng tatlong beses isang araw, at dala-dalawa pa ang account. Kainggit naman kayo! Wala kasi akong laptop o PC at home, kaya sumasaglit lang na maka-log-in sa ofiz namin ~~(sabay pray na sana may isang vacant so i can use)~~. Kaya pasensiya na mga tsong at tsang kung di ako masyadong makahabol sa daily pace dito sa blogosperyo.

Anyway, di naman masyadong kahabaan ang ipo-post ko. Ikekwento ko lang yung awkwardness that I felt today with my friends ~~(well at least ganun kami dati, ewan ko sa kanila if they still consider us friends ngayon)~~. Parang history repeats itself lang noh kasi similar din dito yung nai-post ko dati. Peru dahil friendly nga ako, ~~(i'm raising my hand)~~ bago na naman ‘to. Bagong friends quarrel na naman ~~(if there is such a term)~~.

Haha…layp talaga. Resulta na ito nung last founder’s day namin. Syempre I made a decision na naman which to them is kinda unfair. Hay hewan ko ba sa kanila. Ang hirap talaga gumawa ng desisyon kasi di lahat sasang-ayon. But I had to do it, para naman madisiplina sila kahit papano. So ayun na nga, galit-galitan na naman ang drama nila sa ‘ken. Peru ano pa bang magagawa ko, I had to stand firm by my decision, however hard.

Ay oo nga pala di niyo alam ang istorya no? Ganito kasi yun, di ko lang naman kasi pinayagang i-release ang t-shirts ng classmates ko’ng ~~(super bait)~~ di tumulong o kahit nagpakita man lang ng kanilang mga kaluluwa sa activities namin last taym, habang halos i-chop na namen ang aming bodies just to distribute the tasks. At tama ba namang pupunta lang sila sa booth namen ~~(salamat sa mga co-officers ko at dun na rin sa mga nagmagandang loob na tumulong at nagpuyat)~~ to get their t-shirts. Ni hindi man lang nangamusta kung ano nang nangyayari sa mundong ibabaw, o kung buhay ba pa kami matapos hagupitin ng sandamakmak sa responsibilities, habang ang mga ~~(hinayupak)~~ super bait kong classmates at members ay dinaig pa ang pulis sa pagpapasarap. Tama ba naman yun Kuya Kim? Pakisagot naman po.

At eto na nga ang after-effect. Todo isnaban as in walang pansinan sa klase kahit siko na lang ang pagitan ~~(imagine how awkward it is?)~~. Imaginin mong tatatlo lang kami sa isang row, tapos kahit yata apakan mo pa yung mukha o kurutin mo yung large intestines, di pa rin iimik. ~~(kaya mo yun?)~~ Di pa naman ako sanay sa mga eksenang ganyan kasi maingay akong tao ~~(peru pag wala akong kakilala, super tameme naman na parang pipi)~~. Ganun pa man, ewan ko kay Batman, itutuloy ko pa rin ang ka-emohang 'to. Sabihin na nilang ma pride ako e sa yun lang ang meron ako sa ngayon. I won't reconcile with them until they realized their fault. Yeah, I should admit I have my shortcomings also, but sana naman aminin din nila na parehong kaming may kasalanan. Wag yung puro na lang ako yung nagpapakumbaba. ~~(pang-MMK na 'to)~~ Kasalanan ko oo, kasi bayad na yung Tshirts nila yet di ko pa rin binigay? ~~(sino ba ako para i-hold ang shirts nila?)~~ Hindi naman sa ayaw kong ibigay na nararapat na sa kanila, ang sa akin lang e magcooperate naman sana sila. I mean, nung naging 5th placer kami sa overall rankings ng 64 student organizations in the campus, para kanino ba yun? Para sa'ken lang ba yun? Di ba para sa society yun? Karangalan ng society namin yun. So kung lahat tayo nag-effort, e di lahat tayo makaka-appreciate nun daba?

But since tapos na ang lahat, nangyari na ang dapat mangyari kasi nanalo na si Pacman at mukhang magreretiro na si Golden Boy, pwede na nilang kunin kung ano yung sa tingin nila ay sa kanila. Ba't ko ba ipagdadamot yun? Unang-una hindi sa 'ken yun at pangalawa anong gagawin ko sa mga yun? Sagutin nyo naman ako please.

Ngayon, sa mga awkward moments na nangyari at mangyayari pa. Diyos na ang bahala kung kakayanin ko pa. But as the old cliche goes, I will just let the time heal. Pero sana it wont take long. Baka makasanayan ko nang isnabin sila at ganun din sila sa 'ken. Sayang naman ang ilang taon ng friendship. Miss ko na kayo mga bakla. Ewan ko ba kasi sa inyo. Ewan ko rin sa sarili ko.

At bago ko tapusin ang kaechusan ng layp ko, hayaan nyo munang magpasalamat ako dahil umabot na rin sa bilang na apat as in four as in kwatro ang followers ko. Sa ilang buwan ko na dito sa blogosperyo, akala ko wala ng magtitiyagang sumubaybay sa kabulastugan ko. But i was damn wrong. Meron naman pala. At dahil dun, tats na tats ako kaya buong nervous system kong pinasasalamatan ang aking mga tagahanga na sina Pusang-Gala, Zeb, Rina ~~(na pinilit ko lang)~~ at syempre sa newfound ate ko sa blogosphere na napakagaling, napakatalino at napakaseksing si ate JosH Marie. Salamat po sa inyong lahat. Paxenxa na rin kasi once in a blue moon lang akong magpost ng bagong entry yet you have given me the chance. Domo Arigatu Gosaimas. Narinig ko lang yan but di ko talaga alam ang spelling kaya sorry na ha.

Nga pala salamat din ng marami kay Kosa
dahil one of the followers ko na rin siya ngayon. Hay di pa rin talaga ako makapaniwala, dumarami na sila. Thank you guys. Wag sanang kayong magsawa at wag din magbago ang isip nyo. Nakakalima na ako.

Mabuhay ang asosasyon!

2008-12-03T11:53:00.000-08:00

This is it! I’ve got my new post again after quiet a long time of silence. I’m sorry for the absence; I was just too busy during the passed days because we have had a week-long celebration of our school’s 81st founding anniversary. There are many stories to tell yet time has always been its tight rival.

But not anymore, I will be utilizing the time I have right now to come up with a topic as I’m fighting the drowsiness I’m feeling while in front of the computer. Damn! I’m just too exhausted to think of anything, however, my fingers are typing as if they have a mind of their own.

Enough is enough for unnecessary introduction. Let me start this absurdity. ~~(at nang matapos na)~~

I’m just very happy at the moment because I can finally rest after those sleepless nights I spent guarding our booth. My life will be back to normal again ~~(ganito ka OA)~~ after the five-day-activity slated for our founder’s week has finally taken its toll yesterday. It was culminated with the awarding of certificates, trophies and prices for those organizations that have accumulated enough points to be given the recognition.

I was surprised when I heard the news that my organization (MCS) made it on the fifth place in the overall rankings of the 64 student organizations in our school. Honestly, I was more than flattered when I confirmed the news. It is only proper for me to share the recognition and congratulate our society for the individual efforts we chipped in that brought our society to where it is right now. ~~(para naming ang layo na natin, e ganun pa rin naman diba? Hahaha…papel lang naman yun)~~

Thank you so much to everyone in the organization. From the booth committee, to the decoration and gimmick committee and the persons in charge of the booth including those who don’t have a committee yet voluntarily rendered their services to make the event memorable and enjoyable. I hope we’ll still have the same motivation next year. It was a great experience guys. Again, thank you so much!

Ewan kung may laman ba to o kung korak ang grammar. Antok na antok na kasi ako e kelangan kong magpost kasi inaamag na daw yung site ko sabi ni Manikang Papel kaya bahala na si Batman kung may magbabasa nito. Madaling araw na kasi. Hehe..sige gudnayt!

It's all about leadership

2008-11-26T12:21:00.000-08:00

I always believe that good leaders are also good followers. Ironically, I’m not a good follower. Should I expect a good leadership out myself? Let the members speak their minds. (If they happen to bump my site…)

I would just like to express similar bitterness my friend Bong ~~(sowe na gud frewnd)~~ has experienced in his leadership. (of which I’m one of the members)

I can relate how maddening it is to schedule a meeting for your group but instead of starting it on time, you have to spare another hour or more because you will have to wait for the rest of members to arrive so that there should be a quorum.

Even if you still have other things to do, you don’t have a choice but to sacrifice it or miss it at all because waiting for them has already consumed much of your time. They just don’t have an idea how frustrating it is to you. They just don’t have an idea how much you extend your patience in order not to reach your boiling point.

Another thing is when they get inside the room late and the meeting has begun, they will automatically babble with their seatmates/classmates (as if they haven’t seen each other for decades) and eventually disturb your ongoing discussion. Isn’t it already below the belt? Isn’t it worth slapping their faces until you see them bleed? (but that is too harsh I believe).

Moreover, how would you feel if the people who usually neglect the meetings are the officers themselves? Haven’t they realized that they should be a model for the rest of the members? I would assume that if they are not stupid they are moron.

Or, if we look at it on the other side, maybe they don’t respect my leadership. Perhaps, they think they are better than me. Well I don’t think so because if that is so, they should have been the ones that were elected and not me.

Now my point here is not to wash my hands and redeem myself from this insensitiveness, or to brag my leadership either. Rather, I am just writing this to let the people know (especially those who are concerned) that a leader can only perform his tasks smoothly if the members are willing to cooperate.

We all have our lazy moments sometimes but for so long as we can minimize it, then let’s do it. We all have our share of stupidity in life but as long as we can control it, let’s go for it. We are not perfect but we can minimize our errors by carefully thinking our deeds before putting them into action. We all have to invest respect to other people if we want to be respected by them also.

Love Thy Neighbor

2008-11-20T01:40:00.000-08:00

This story actually took place the other day. I didn’t have the luxury of time to write it earlier so I’m writing it now.

I was supposed to sleep because I stayed overnight in the publication office to finish some assignments. I didn’t even have a minute of sleep that time so needless to say I was really tired. My eyes needed a rest so badly, so was my body. I did not even bothered eating breakfast. I arrived home at around 7 o’clock in the morning and sleeping was all I wanted to do.

Just when I was about to close my eyes, I heard noises from our neighbors. I didn’t mind it at first for I thought it would be gone in few seconds. Eventually, I slept for a couple of minutes until the same noises, louder this time, woke me up. No matter how I tried ignoring it, it is annoyingly unbearable. I closed my eyes and covered my ears with pillows but it doesn’t lessen the noise.

I stood up and peeked at the window. Damn! I found out that the noises were produced by the gossipers in the neighborhood, shouting at each other while encircling three to five people who are apparently having a fight.

Grrr! If only I was born to slay irritating people, I should have done it at the moment so I can immediately go to sleep without being disturbed. Since I’m not that kind of person, I contended myself watching the situation. I can’t remember how many punches were thrown in the air. I don’t know even know whose hands threw it and whose face received it. I don’t consider myself a barbaric type but I seem to enjoy the show.

Before I can see blood in the scene, police officers came and settled the battle. In just a few minutes, the place was abandoned and the environment turned silent. Good thing because I can now continue what I had started moments ago.

I went back to my bed, grab a pillow and conditioned myself to sleep. I wore a smile on my face before I finally fell asleep. The show was terribly good. It was a good entertainment before sleeping. It’s like watching TV show before you go to sleep in the evening. Deep sigh! I just hope I won’t be disturbed this time. Zzzzzzz….

At dahil naka-receive na naman ako ng award isisingit ko na dito yung sagot ko.
Salamat nga palang sa maganda at matalinong iniidolo ko sa blogosperya na si ate JoShy...kelangan nga pala namin ni dEe ng budgEt sa fAnZcLub

Eto daw ang rules:
1. Each blogger must post these rules.
2. Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged, need to write ten facts about themselves. You need to choose ten people to tag and list their names.
task # 2
1. wala akong txtm8 (ewan kc kung uso pa yan ngaun)
2. i love reading books (khit nosebleed ako minsan)
3. medyo marami-rami na rin ang nabasa kong books peru wala ni isa man sa kanila ang pagmamay-ari ko dahil...
4. ika-apat na fact: baga kog lepz (makapal ang mukha at gilagid)
5. maraming galit sa 'ken (ewan ko sa kanila)
6. matagal na 'kong di nakakasimba (peru Mahal ko si LORD..pramiz)
7. konti lang ang damit ko (penge...)
8. i'm a busy person
9. currently a blog addict (do not site da obvious)
10.konti lang ang alam kaya hanggang dito na lang...

i'm passing the tag to the following people:
marga, ambrocia, extraordinary noriel, junrell, joel, dora, nadine, ren, chessa, at carla...

2008-11-18T19:40:00.000-08:00

Here's my answer to PD's tag:

10 reasons to smile and smile and smile 10x a day

1.maHaL ako ni God...xuR aQ dUn
2.i have lots of friends (isama mo na ung mga former)
3.hindi ako bobo...di nga lang matalino (di bali na)
4.dahiL may tRabaho aketch..haha
5.coz my mom raised me well..aw?
6.naG-aArAL ako-(maniwala kayo pls.)
7.natatawa ako sa sarili ko (xur ako dun...lol)
8.mEmber ako ng TN
9.di ako inuTiL (ewan lang kung pakinabang nga ba)
10.wala lang gusto ko lang talagang mag-smile everyday

Ayan tapos na rin sa wakas...ang hirap mag-isip

At dahil tapos nang malusaw ang utak kong sing laki lang ng yutaks ng galunggong, ipapasa ko naman to sa iba. At yun ay sina:

rina, hanne fe, gian carlo, dj rem, caroline

At sana naman ay tumugon kayo. hehe

Moving On

2008-11-14T11:44:00.000-08:00

It wasn't long when I posted a topic announcing my grief over some of the closest friends I've lost. I can't remember it in details anymore but I can instantly recall the pain it caused. I hate to sound mushy so I will be cutting it short 'til here. It's already buried in vast oblivion and digging it is like allowing its ghosts to haunt you again until you become psychotic. It's already part of history and keeping it that way is a clever choice.

What matters to me now is to embrace another phase of my existence. There's so much beyond that and I don't wanna face it half-heartedly. I want to end it right so I will be starting it right. I don't want my past to trespass and manipulate my approach to this new experience. Or, I will end up messing it again.

This new phase of my life is more about moving on. It's about learning from your errors in the past and making it right this time. It's about reflecting upon yourself and looking into the aspects that need improvement. It's about realizing that swallowing your pride is not making yourself less of a man but making you whole rather. It's about finding fulfillment in befriending your enemy. It's about taking the initiative to reach out to the people who became distant from you. And most importantly, it's about recognizing that we do not have the right to be a mediocre if we know we can do more.

I know this is just the beginning and there's still much about this phase. I know sometimes I make myself contented of a half-baked achievement when I can always do better. I am also aware that I am repeating of some my mistakes hitherto. I know I am still a procrastinator but I'm trying to get away from it gradually. Sometimes, I just can help but prioritize merrymaking than performing my obligations. But I am not blind to these negative traits I possess, someday I can overcome it.

In spite of this, I can still say I am a changed man because I have been hearing good comments from people around me lately. I have also re-established rusted friendships. I have learned to hang out with people whom I thought were awkward and boring to be with before. I was just amazed to appreciate their company, so was mine. I have also learned to converse with people without easily losing my temper and eventually hitting my boiling point. With all these and with all the positive response, I believe full improvement is just around the corner.

MiNSan pA uLAn bUMuhOS kA...

2008-11-09T04:00:00.000-08:00

Sobrang bonggang-bongga ang lakas ng ulan dito sa maliit ngunit maganda at tahimik naming ~~*cabaret*~~ lugar. Tae! Kala ko di na ako makakapasok sa work dahil (sigh!) halos two hours din akong naghintay ng masasakyan habang ang lupit ng buhos ng raindrops on my guitar. Lang ya, nangawit na ‘ko sa kakaantay peru wala yatang namamasadang driver dahil sa lakas ng buhos ng ulan at hampas ng hangin.

Asan na kaya sina mamang driver sweet lover? Bukod sa para na ‘kong basang *trapo* sisiw eh super late na ako. Lagot na, baka tuluyan na akong masisanti nito. Ewan ko lang kung pa’no ko sasaluin ang galit ni madam employer.

At dahil mahaba ang aking ~~*!#^@$#~*~~ pasensya, sa wakas ay may dumaan din traysikel. Pilitin ko mang sumakay ng taxi, di pwede dahil bukod sa obsolete yan dito, eh wala din akong pambayad. So mabalik tayo kwento. Dahil alam kong di ako agad makakasakay sa layo ng pupuntahan ko at may bagyo pa, dinoble ko na lang yung pamasahe. Ampf! Sigurista din si manong tsuper, triplihin ko na lang daw kasi galit ang weather condition. Kung bakit naman kasi walang blogger account (meron ata di ko lang alam) si kuya Kim para updated ako sa lagay ng panahon. Kaya ayon nagbayad nalang ako ng triple kesa naman mawalan ako ng raket.

Habang binabaybay namin ang daan, wala na ‘kong makita sa harapan dahil sa bagsik ng ulan. Basta nagulat din ako dahil bumabaha na pala at hanggang tuhod na eh slow motion pa rin yung takbo namin. Tae! Para kaming sumusunod sa parade, 5km/hr ang drama. Napa-isip tuloy ako kahit walang utak. Di naman kaya dating drayber ng punerarya si manong? Ah basta umepal nalang ako at humingi ng medyo malakas-lakas na arangkada.

Go naman agad si manong at ginawang 6km/hr ang drama (at least lumakas konti). Ewan, eto na yata yung maximum niya, palibhasa tanders na kasi. Kung may iba lang sanang masasakyan, kanina pa ‘ko bumaba. Tsk! Nagti-is nalang ako.

Nakakatawa lang kasi sa kasagsagan ng sungit ng panahon, may mangilan-ngilan pa rin sex workers na nakaposte ~~*ng meralco*~~ sa gilid-gilid. Hay ewan, ganito yata talaga ang life! Kahit para nang mga lantang gulay, go pa rin sa kanilang raket. Patawarin ako, peru di naman siguro sila ang dahilan ng dilubyong ito? Nagtatanong lang po.

Sa aming pag-uusad pagong, may nasipat na naman ako. Sa gitna ng bagyo ang setting ng dramang ito. Umi-eksina ang lovers (assume ko lang na lovers nga sila). Nakaluhod si babae na tila nagmamakaawa kay lalaki habang ang huli ay todo effort naman na makawala sa kapit ni Eba. Bukod pa jan, para silang bingi sa nagsisigawan sa daan. Buti na lang at dinaig sila sa lakas ng ulan at wala rin audience impact kasi walang ibang tao nun. Tama ba namang isabay sa bagyo ang LQ? Hindi naman sa nakikialam ako peru parang ganun na rin. Basta wala na ‘kong nakita after dahil malayo na kami.

Wala anu-ano pa at narating din namin ang lagusan este ang aking destinasyon. After kong magbayad ng pagkalaki-laki ay binuksan ko na rin ang payong kong dala. Pucha! Naramdaman kong basa na pala ako dahil super butas pala ang walang hiyang umbrella ni Rihanna. Buti na lang nasa harap na ‘ko ng gate.

Pagpasok ko ng opisina eh para na ‘kong lantang gulay na pupungas-pungas. Daig ko pa ang isinawsaw sa isang timbang tubig na puno ng yelo sa lamig. Late pa ako ng 20 minutes. ‘Pag mamalasin ka nga naman oo. Mabuti na lang at naintindihan ng supervisor namin ang kawawa kong sitwasyon. May raket pa rin ako. Yehey! Hai teka ang ginaw.

At dito po nagtatapos ang aking kwento Charo. Magandang gabi mga kagilagid at kabagang.

waLANg kWEnTa

2008-11-08T04:05:00.000-08:00

Heto na’t tatahakin ko na rin ang landas ng aking mga idolong sina rOnTurOn at pUssYcAtdoLL esTe pAperdOll pala. Isasama ko na rin lahat ng active na kabagang at kagilagid natin dito sa mundo ng mga lasheng –ang blogsphere.

Uumpisahan ko na ring *maghubad* magkalat ng tagalog posts dito. Ba’t nga ba pinipilit natin ang ~~*menor de edad*~~ ating sarili na gamitin ang dolyar na lingwahe gayung pwedeng-pwede naman nating gamitin ang ating pambansang ~~*kamao*~~ wika, diba?

Ika nga ng founder ng mga emo na si Gat Jose Rizal, “Ang hindi marunong magmahal ng sariling wika ~~*ay foreigner*~~ higit pa sa malansang fish.” Loko lang po mga kabagang at kagilagid. Wag naman sana akong ipahuli ni mamang pulis dahil diniscriminate ko ang ating national hero. At pati sa mga emo. May dugo rin akong emo kaso nga lang di ganap kasi kalahati ng dugo ko kape, kaya peace po tayo mga brad.

At dahil ipinanganak akong insecure at nothing but a 2nd rate trying-hard coffee pot, manggagaya na rin ako ng istilo. Yun bang tipong seryoso daw peru ~~*bastos*~~ may sense of horror ay humor pala. Ang laki kasi ng impluwensiya nung mga idolo ko eh. Sana nga lang may magbasa pa ng blog ko pagkatapos nito. Wag naman sana nila akong isumpa at sana kilalanin pa rin ako ng pamilya after this. OA..lol..

Well, hanggang dito nalang muna ang kahibangang ito dahil mukhang umuusok na ang kili-kili ng mga nagbabasa ng walang kwentang post na ‘to. Peace be with us. //_’

Whatever Nanny You're Such A Loser!

2008-11-06T23:03:00.000-08:00

There are only two kinds or person in this world. I would say that the first is the insensitive type. And I wouldn’t mind counting myself under this category because people around me can attest to that. I believe my soul might as well agree with me. I have been hearing this negative trait of mine for many years. But I am uncertain if I’m aware of this or not. Maybe the latter is my case because no matter how I try to improve, they still branded me the same. You know the feeling of pushing yourself to the end of the wall just to be appreciated by others but end up being a failure?! Rather they would assume that you are too airy and conceited. It’s like waving not only your both hands and feet but also your entirety to them yet they are not responding. Isn’t it a painful way of telling you that you are good for nothing? It’s as if they would rather pay attention to the invisibility of the air rather than acknowledging you.

But how did I earn the moniker? What brought them to the idea of branding me as such? Let me try to answer it myself. Maybe this is the result of my being “bossy” according to them. Well it’s hard and frustrating to lead an organization with more than 50 members especially if it is your first time to assume such responsibility. “Mangangapa ka talaga” as how the Tagalog people say it. But I won’t use it as defense mechanism because I have already gotten this far with my leadership. I’m not really a better leader, not even a good one. In fact, I can’t even lead my life as to the way I wanted it to be. Look at me, I’m just a mess. Now forgive me if I have been too bossy for you. I just don’t know how to lead. You might as well take away the leadership from me if you feel that you deserve it more than I do. I wouldn’t mind.

I am also a “trying hard” joker. But my jokes are terribly not laughable and worst it’s hitting below the belt. Sometimes I’m getting way too personal that I’m becoming oblivious of others feelings. And I believe this mounted up their reasons.

Now I would say the second type of person is the oversensitive type. They are the kind of people who are extremely sensitive. And I would say that maybe they are just overreacting to what seem like a simple situation or just exacerbating it. Meaning when you start to get mad to your friend for a reason which is very superficial in nature, as an oversensitive person you start to dig up all the things your friend has done. You will end up meeting your boiling point ensued. Instead of slapping it on his face right after, you’ll bank it and let it pass until you can no longer bear the turmoil and eventually suffer yourself later on. Well you’re such a pathetic and hypocrite creature. I would borrow Ogie’s line in the Spoiled Brat segment of Bubble Gang and share it to you “Whatever Yaya you’re such a loser!”

Yes you are! You can always confront the person you hate so things will be over. If want to put a period and never start another sentence then do it. Not that you’ll keep it and masquerade to other people pretending everything’s fine while keeping the grudges. Strike whilst the iron is hot man! You’re fooling nobody but yourself.

Oops! I think I’m losing my point here. Yeah! Whatever! It would be better if I end it up here and finish it some other time if procrastination will not visit me. This is utterly an absurd post. Thank you for wasting your time reading this. Hehehe…LOL! //_’

A self-realization

2008-10-24T14:32:00.000-07:00

Some couple of years ago, I was the man I wanted to be. I have bundles of friends from college, despite my being a novice. Not to mention my ever loyal friends from high school who’ve proven their worth to me. Of course I also have my course mates and new friends from other subjects.

In short, life was good and easy then. Or, at least I made it good if I may put it that way. But I’m not sure if I’ve realized what I had that time. I’m not even sure if I have the smallest idea how blessed I am to be given such wonderful people.

Perhaps I was not aware because I’m too confident that I will not lose them. I will not lose them because I have adequate time and attention for them. Time to bond with them, and cultivate the friendship we planted together so it will grow. Another factor maybe is because during that time, I’m not pressured to budget my time yet. Time which is utterly indispensable in any type of relationship to work based on my experience.

Before, aside from my whole day school rituals, I still have energy to hang out with them if I have vacant periods, or at night time and even during weekends. If I cannot be with them, I can always reach out through text message or email and the like.

But I believe it is really true that as we advance in life, we learn the limits of our abilities. We come to the point in our lives wherein we can no longer divide our time equally for everyone who needs it. We have to sacrifice the rest because we have no other choice.

The more we take higher steps in our academic journey, the more time it demands. The more we strive to excel in one field, the more we lose the others. We have to learn to set our priorities in life. This is one hell of a fact that we have to swallow. I know it sucks but it’s the reality.

And I got my fair share of this reality. I lost friends beyond my knowing. I mean I am uncertain if I have become busy or the other way that I was oblivious of their departure. They left me one by one until nothing is left to me but their traces, and some few remaining persons whom I can only count with my fingers.

I panicked like a child who cannot find his way back home until dark comes and he’s left alone in the middle of nowhere. I did all possible things to bring them back but I failed. They’re even reluctant to listen to it. It’s as if there’s nothing I can do to change the decision they’ve already fixed.

Then I also have to have a fixed decision for myself. If they have given it up that easy, why can’t I? If it is less complicated to let the person go then why keep them? Why will I make it hard for myself? Friends come and go anyway.

Eventually, I gave up on them. Slowly and gradually, I detached myself from them, no matter how hard and painful it is to put into action. And then later on, I realized that if they really are my friends, they shouldn’t have left me. Rather, they should’ve understood me as I do to them. Isn’t friendship supposed to be that way? Anyway, I’ll leave my door ajar should they decide to enter again. But I’ll be wiser and prudent (if this is the proper term) this time. This is now the man I have to be.

Just a thought

2008-09-05T15:29:00.001-07:00

I was about to leave the house for my evening work when a thought suddenly crossed my mind. It was a thought that popped out in the most unexpected moment. The kind that intrudes your senses. The kind that is awakening. Or maybe, the kind which is alarming to me.

I just happen to pause for a while and ponder on some things.

What kind of life am I living? How do I differ to other students? Or to other young people? Am I happy with it? Am I contented with it? Am I doing the right thing? What really is the right thing for me?

Well I was just hoi polloi few years ago. When I entered college, I was very ordinary. I go to school and home sweet home after it. Of course I have my fair share of vices. What are youth anyway? I was not that attached really to my academics. I have much of my time wasted at home. Watching TV, renting movies, listening to the hottest music, hang-out sometimes with my friends, chat with my neighbors, and spending quality time with my family.

In short, I was living an easy life. I deserve it perhaps because that's just what I wanted.

But things changed during my second year, especially when I joined the student publication. It was a dream come true for me because of my passion in writing. It was a dream come true for me because I'm starting to get off my shell. I was weaving my own identity. I started to read my full name in our school paper. It was a self-fulfillment that no money can compensate. But most of all I earned friends who made my college life worth the while. Everyday is a day of excitement with them. The publication has really made me feel like I am somebody. I am no longer a nobody but somebody who's living a life with purpose.

As I torn another page of the calendar to see another school year passed, I wasn't really aware of what’s going to happen. Well unexpectedly, I was elected leader of our society. It may be providential but I was also employed as a part time agent in one of the companies here in the city. This means that aside from my load of being a full time student and campus journalist, I carry the responsibilities of being a student leader while working part time during weekends. This was also the reason why again I got elected as one of the officers of another organization, and then another. Modesty aside but I think I am overwhelmed with the responsibilities put on my shoulders.

"With great power comes great responsibilities." goes the cliche but bears the truth. Another one is "You can't serve two masters at the same time." One might consider these as passe statements but they are absolutely true.

In fact, amidst the bundles of work that I have to do, I sometimes end up staring blankly in the wall doing nothing. I don't know what to prioritize. I remember my teacher told me once in our dialect "imo man gung giduphan tanan". He's precisely correct.

Now I'm bound with too much responsibilities that I no longer have time for my family, or even for myself. I just give a heavy sigh along with my frustrations as I imagine my life. I was just an ordinary student who got bored with ordinary life so I wished for some pressures. But look where my wish has brought me. Look how far I've soared. And look how much pressure this life has. I truly miss him. I miss myself.

But that should have been fine if you are happy with what you're doing. In my situation, I should say I'm pressured but still have reservoir of happiness. Deadlines really pissed me off, but being with my colleagues in the publication already gives an exit for all of my stress. I make them laugh, I make them mad, they make make me smile, and they also make me upset. That's our life. We are family here. We seek refuge in everybody's solace. We give love and so we receive.

To finish this, I know God is good that He will help me surmount all these.

So God bless us all.

What an experience!

2008-08-15T11:48:00.001-07:00

Indeed it's one of my most unforgettable experience since my college life! For one factor maybe is that we've been to a comedy bar (kuno?!) here in Dumaguete City. The first of its kind (kuno?!).

Who would have thought that the not-so-planned hang out would leave a lasting impression on me. I hope the others feel the same as well.

I was really expecting much from that comedy bar that BEa keeps on boasting in school. Off we went there and to our surprise, there's nothing special outside the establishment. Not even a signage to make a passerby realize what's inside. It was just a dusted and cheap streamer there (forgive me the term BEa) with the name of the bar.

When we came there, I was already laughing seeing one of the gay performers there re-touching his/her make-up. We even have second thought until Bea went out and told us to get inside. I like it because there's no entrance fee. We just have to order anything and that would be all. I mean the fun would be bottomless!

Bea sang two songs before the "show kuno" started. But before that, my long time missed classmate and friend Jemmy called. Though it was utterly unexpected but I saw Nadine crying heavily before she passed the phone to me and talked with Jemmy. She's really unpredictable!

When the show finally started, Bea made some not-so-funny-trying-hard-jokes-which-at-the -time-was-somewhat-effective-or-I-don't-know (hehe..forgive me Bea). But I should say that it did entertained us.

Anyway, its fun seeing my colleagues whacking out things. I know for a fact that Bea has a crush on Joel (who was also there) so I challenged him/her to play on him. Well I got a good response because BEa urged Joel to come up on stage and the two played the very wholesome game TOUCH THE COLOR.

OMG! I never thought the game could be played that way. Or maybe I just never thought Bea has done what she has done (Joel pod ai!). Once again I have proven how hard is it to earn money. You have to do anything and everything.

The show went smoothly with unpredictable surprises in the middle. You should have seen my teacher and my friend whose skills in writing is unparalleled. That was really a night that one will opt to stay awake.

Which exactly what happened to us right after the supercalifragilisticexpialiduscious (am not sure with the spelling) show. We walked from the place all the way to the freedom park. We were so hungry after so we decided to eat the "pancit guisado" that Joel bought for J-----. (niuna man ug uli ang duha).

You must be thinking we ate it normally right? Nope, we kinda asked one tiny plastic from the nearby burger stand and divided it for more than ten people. After that we voraciously devour the food as if we've never been fed for weeks. (gutom jud au friend)

Then we planned to stay in Ninoy's head until 5 o'clock in the morning (ambot morning naba na), however it rained so we need to find shelter (or somewhere with roof at least so we wont get wet). We ended staying in the stage where dancers used to practice during daytime. It was so dusty and dirty but we slept for a moment. That was my first and my last I believe to sleep in freedom park. (sa stage pa jud).

I got home at almost 5 o'clock and I comfortably slept with smile on my face. Thanks for that one of a kind experience. Thanks for the memories. MCS rocks!

My first

2008-08-08T13:41:00.000-07:00

I don't know what to blog for now since I'm just newly registered, but I will look forward to blogging more if everything goes well. For now, I just want to finish this little introduction.

I don't know if I'm gonna be taking this blog site of mine seriously but I will cross the bridge when I get there. I'll see where my limitations would lead me. I just want to welcome myself!