Ordinary Thoughts

This stupidity is beyond my plans for the heart’s day. It hasn’t even paid a visit in my subconscious. Bearing this madness over someone special is truly unexpected. But it is now futile to cry over spilled milk, as the old adage goes. Maybe it’s time for these two individuals to take their separate ways.

Once again, I have proven how love destroys the sanity of a clever person. (Please set aside the notion that I’m bragging myself on the last two words of the preceding sentence.) No matter how hard a person tries not to be vulnerable from the weakening powers of love, he’s still caught off guard sometimes—and you can count me in!

They say that the most important thing that should be present in a relationship is TRUST. Yes, trust. This five-letter-word which is very precious for others that is why they hesitate to give it wholeheartedly to their partners, however strong the feeling is. Nonetheless, you really have to give trust if want to be trusted. And so to speak, by all means, I have given mine.

But what if at the end of the day, you will find out that the person you have trusted does not really deserve the trust? And more than that, what if that person utterly destroyed the trust? How would you react? Can you forgive the offender? Of course not right?

Now in my viewpoint, my initial reaction would be to despise the person—forgiveness may come later as time goes by.

However, what if you still love the person? Is love without trust enough to keep you holding on? I believe that is stupidity but I can’t categorize myself afar from it as well. Is this really what others call “falling in love”? Do we really have to fall in love? Why don’t we climb? Now that’s hilarious! I’m going out of the topic now.

Well anyway, I don’t want to put more torture to myself. At least now, I have escaped from the “painful” stage and I think I’m doing it great—yeah, great, great pretender.

I just want to curse her. Slap her. Do some tongue-lashing. And most importantly, hate her. Hate her today, tomorrow and in perpetuity. But, what I vehemently hate now is the fact that I can’t hate her enough despite what she’s done. And this keeps me a stupid person.

LOVE SUCKS!

Gusto ko sana magpost din ng entry tungkol sa love kasi halos lahat ng bloggers ngayon ganun ang tema. Palibhasa ilang tulog na lang, araw na ng mga puso. Hay naku mapupuno na naman ang mga hotels at magiging todo expensive din ang flowers for this occasion.

Kaya lang di pa ako makaisip ng pang-Valentine post eh. But I think that would come later. In the meantime, kwento ko muna ang dalawang araw na patuloy na pagbuhos ng ulan (buti na lang ngayon at nagpakita na si bespren araw) na nagresulta sa grabeng pagbaha dito sa City of Gentle People. As in grabe. Kalahati ng mga dumaraang bus ang lubog sa baha (ewan ko lang kung may biyahe pa). Samantalang ang daming bahay at buhay ang tinangay ng rumaragasang tubig baha. Hindi ko man alam ang eksaktong mga nangyari kasi nakamukmok lang ako sa opisina habang nakamasid sa pagbuhos ng ulan. Kelan kaya mauubos ang pagtulo nito? Sana isang buhusan na lang para wala ng ulan, kaso parang ayaw talagang tumigil. Bad trip kasi brown out, pinapapak tuloy ako ng lamok.

Di naman siya (ulan) malakas kaso nga lang eh continuous ang buhos. Syempre dahil dun, lalambot ang lupa at magiging vulnerable sa flashfloods. Nang minsan humina ang ulan, lumabas kami saglit para bumili ng makakain. Ay oo di ko nga pala nasabing dumating yung dalawang kong kasamahan sa opisina na wala rin alam sa mga pangyayari dahil nagshoot sila ng commercial for school competition. Buti na lang dumating sila kasi kahit brown out eh ok na rin kasi pwede kaming magkwentuhan (tama ba yun?).

Anyway tuloy ang story, so paglabas namin (dalawa kami nung classmate ko) di syempre basing-basa kami kasi apaw sa tuhod ang tubig eh. Elevated pa nga yung dinaanan namin. Pati national highway di nakaligtas. Traffic dahil di na halos makaabante yung ibang sasakyan kasi namamatayan ng makina na gitna ng daan. Kaya ayon sina mamang pulis nakabantay salakay.

Nung makatawid na kami, nakita namin si David (classmate ko rin) na half naked kasi daw nahulog siya sa isang manhole habang naglalakad. Basa lahat ng gamit nya—cellphone, pera at gamit sa skwela. May pasok kasi kami every Saturday. Kwento pa niya, di raw muna siya makakauwi kasi gumuho yung bridge sa lugar nila. Syempre walang kahit anong uri ng sasakyan ang makakadaan. Naawa talaga ako sa mga nastranded dahil sa baha.

Di naman kasi nakakaligtas ang lugar namin tuwing may bagyo, peru hindi ordinaryo dito ang makaranas ng ganito kagrabeng pagbaha. As in lahat ng lansangan lubog sa tubig baha. Ewan ko lang kung may uuwian pa ako ngayon, sana naman di tinangay ng ago sang bahay namin (I’m crossing ma fingas).

Well anyway, kinabukasan narinig na lang ni Bong ang bali-balitang ang dami daw namatay sa dalawang araw na pag-ulan. Mga bahay na kinain ng baha at mga buhay na natagpuan na lamang na palutang lutang sa dagat. Grabe talaga.
So mga nangyari, ewan ko lang kung appropriate bang gumawa ako ng Valentine post. Marahil ito na muna. Naku pasensya na at napahaba ang kwento ko. Salamat sa pagbabasa. Naway patnubayan tayo ni Lord lagi. Ingat!