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He vs. She

Author: mavs // Category:

For quite a long time, he has been keeping love at the backseat. In fact, he can’t remember exactly anymore when his last was.

Coincidentally, she has also been containing herself in a similar situation. Love, for her, is found among her friends and loved ones, not from anybody else.

And then chance creeps into the scene, and the two met.

It cost him a lot of balls to risk everything and laid his feelings for her on the table. An unprecedented move, but he did boldly so, and it was all hers for the taking. One thing led to another, and they found themselves liking each other. And so did a beautiful love tree came sprouting.

But not barely an overnight has passed, not before a speck of light had the chance to nurture the tree, fear came marching and stepped over it. Such a drastic event. Such a tragic ending. Poor tree. How beautiful your foliage could have been.

He was taken aback at how transient her feelings are. And she was rocked of the fact that she can’t really free herself from the cage she’s put herself in and at how fear castigates her every time she tries to gamble with love. He has a number of failed relationships as well, but he can only imagine of the magnitude of pain that strangled her hitherto.

She said she realized she’s not really up for a relationship, and she never will be. That she’s happy being single and of the freedom it gives her. That it is better this way because she is spared from the pain, troubles, responsibilities, and so on that go with the relationship.

This makes sense to him, but what about love? What about the good things and good memories they have started and could have continued together? What about the happiness; the sweet messages they exchange before and after sleeping; the romance they get from holding hands; the giggles they conceal out of stolen kisses; and the fact that he cares for her, thinks of her, and adores her? And the list could go on…

Now he asks himself: What is there to be so afraid of? Being in a relationship doesn’t mean freedom is to be curtailed, commitment is to suffocate you, and pain is to kill you. Of course, every relationship has its ups and downs, highs and lows. That’s a no-brainer. But isn’t it torture to suppress yourself of the chance to love just so you are safe? Well being safe is one, but will it make you happy, alone?

She is now embarking on a trip to find herself.

He is now hanging by a thread.

Last thing they told me is they could use all your pieces of advice, so leave some for Mr. He and Ms. She. :)

Feels like insomnia...aahhh

Author: mavs // Category:
Are you sleepy, are you sleepy brother John?

Does anybody here know any song that induces drowsiness? Darn so frustrated about getting a good sleep even for a day. Seems like all these late-at-night rackets I've done and have been doing for years now all backfire on me. Just when my firewall is down. Tsk!

How I envy those who close their eyes and head to the dreamland in a second, regardless of their position. Whereas here I am laying comfortably in my bed, fan on, lights dim, yet struggling to sleep. I just hate this kind of torture.

I have had solicited some pieces of advice from the most educated friends I've known to my drunkard neighbors. They say I should take a long shower before I go to bed to remove stress, or drink a glass of warm milk, or take a shot or two. There's also this mind-over-matter thing. But none of these seem to work for me. Shall I jog in the wee hours and exhaust my energy til I barely move a muscle? Or maybe I should cyclically sing this song til I bore my consciousness and let my subconscious sneak in.

Are you sleepy, are you sleep brother John?

My 91st!

Author: mavs // Category:
This should be another update post, but I'm lost for words. Whether this is because I haven't been writing for quite sometime, I don't know. I'm certain of one thing though: Being out of the academe has rusted my brain. Not that I'm dumb now, coz I have always been. But there are things I'm confident of doing then that I can't do now anymore. Blogging should top the list. Maybe I just need time and practice to regain my composure and confidence. I should be fine. We should be fine. Have a good one!

On new plans

Author: mavs // Category:
Guess I have become much too busy in the past months with my work in the office and my work from home that I forgot my regular dental check up. It’s been around four months now since my last check up, so I should be hitting my dentist’s clinic any time soon. But this means another spending too. Much as I’d love to avail of the free dental service our company offers, I don’t think it is a good idea if I am to consider feedbacks I got from my colleagues.

I already have my life insurance. And I believe it’s high time now I should mull over medical plan, health plan, and so on. At any rate, let the spending begin.