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He vs. She

Author: mavs // Category:

For quite a long time, he has been keeping love at the backseat. In fact, he can’t remember exactly anymore when his last was.

Coincidentally, she has also been containing herself in a similar situation. Love, for her, is found among her friends and loved ones, not from anybody else.

And then chance creeps into the scene, and the two met.

It cost him a lot of balls to risk everything and laid his feelings for her on the table. An unprecedented move, but he did boldly so, and it was all hers for the taking. One thing led to another, and they found themselves liking each other. And so did a beautiful love tree came sprouting.

But not barely an overnight has passed, not before a speck of light had the chance to nurture the tree, fear came marching and stepped over it. Such a drastic event. Such a tragic ending. Poor tree. How beautiful your foliage could have been.

He was taken aback at how transient her feelings are. And she was rocked of the fact that she can’t really free herself from the cage she’s put herself in and at how fear castigates her every time she tries to gamble with love. He has a number of failed relationships as well, but he can only imagine of the magnitude of pain that strangled her hitherto.

She said she realized she’s not really up for a relationship, and she never will be. That she’s happy being single and of the freedom it gives her. That it is better this way because she is spared from the pain, troubles, responsibilities, and so on that go with the relationship.

This makes sense to him, but what about love? What about the good things and good memories they have started and could have continued together? What about the happiness; the sweet messages they exchange before and after sleeping; the romance they get from holding hands; the giggles they conceal out of stolen kisses; and the fact that he cares for her, thinks of her, and adores her? And the list could go on…

Now he asks himself: What is there to be so afraid of? Being in a relationship doesn’t mean freedom is to be curtailed, commitment is to suffocate you, and pain is to kill you. Of course, every relationship has its ups and downs, highs and lows. That’s a no-brainer. But isn’t it torture to suppress yourself of the chance to love just so you are safe? Well being safe is one, but will it make you happy, alone?

She is now embarking on a trip to find herself.

He is now hanging by a thread.

P.S.
Last thing they told me is they could use all your pieces of advice, so leave some for Mr. He and Ms. She. :)

Feels like insomnia...aahhh

Author: mavs // Category:
Are you sleepy, are you sleepy brother John?

Does anybody here know any song that induces drowsiness? Darn so frustrated about getting a good sleep even for a day. Seems like all these late-at-night rackets I've done and have been doing for years now all backfire on me. Just when my firewall is down. Tsk!

How I envy those who close their eyes and head to the dreamland in a second, regardless of their position. Whereas here I am laying comfortably in my bed, fan on, lights dim, yet struggling to sleep. I just hate this kind of torture.

I have had solicited some pieces of advice from the most educated friends I've known to my drunkard neighbors. They say I should take a long shower before I go to bed to remove stress, or drink a glass of warm milk, or take a shot or two. There's also this mind-over-matter thing. But none of these seem to work for me. Shall I jog in the wee hours and exhaust my energy til I barely move a muscle? Or maybe I should cyclically sing this song til I bore my consciousness and let my subconscious sneak in.

Are you sleepy, are you sleep brother John?

My 91st!

Author: mavs // Category:
This should be another update post, but I'm lost for words. Whether this is because I haven't been writing for quite sometime, I don't know. I'm certain of one thing though: Being out of the academe has rusted my brain. Not that I'm dumb now, coz I have always been. But there are things I'm confident of doing then that I can't do now anymore. Blogging should top the list. Maybe I just need time and practice to regain my composure and confidence. I should be fine. We should be fine. Have a good one!

On new plans

Author: mavs // Category:
Guess I have become much too busy in the past months with my work in the office and my work from home that I forgot my regular dental check up. It’s been around four months now since my last check up, so I should be hitting my dentist’s clinic any time soon. But this means another spending too. Much as I’d love to avail of the free dental service our company offers, I don’t think it is a good idea if I am to consider feedbacks I got from my colleagues.

I already have my life insurance. And I believe it’s high time now I should mull over medical plan, health plan, and so on. At any rate, let the spending begin.

Post anew

Author: mavs // Category:
It's been quite a while bloggers.

Howdy?

Merry Christmas!

I can't write much for now, but let this be the start of another year of my being active here.

Miss you all.

Random Thoughts

Author: mavs // Category:
This post has no particular topic. There's just too many thoughts running in my mind at the moment, so I guess I should just mention them one by one.

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* I was so happy yesterday coz I was able to catch up with the college friends although it was quite a restricted reunion coz we only had a conference call. It wasn't an ideal reunion, but it was satisfying though. Everybody was just so excited to hear each other's voice and boast his/her life's buzzes. Although we only talked thru phone, the fun still overflowed. As in it was so much fun conversing with them. There isn't really a replacement for them notwithstanding the new friends I found at my workplace. Still nothing can replace them in my heart.

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* I just realized that this is now my sixth week as a copyeditor trainee. I only have to hurdle eight more weeks to finish the training. After that it's up to the company whether to hire me and my co-trainees. Good luck to us then!

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* I paid a visit at the publication office the other day and I was very glad to see the again faces of my TN family. It had only been weeks but a lot of things unbeknownst to me had already happened. Well not particularly pertaining to the publication but to the people I am close with. It saddened me to learn that one has to go, but I think it's only proper. On the other hand, there is this one member whose narcissism has gone out of cage. I hope he, for the Love of God, would change before everyone gets mad at him.

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* I chatted with my cousin from the US and she said she's going to give me her laptop computer when she arrives home early next year. Although it's still such a long time but it's better to have something to expect. Yipee!

I think this will do for now. I don't have time anymore to extend this post. Bye for now bloggers. Ciao!

another fuss

Author: mavs // Category:
I hate to fall into this deception once again. However, much as I try to suppress this budding attraction I'm feeling towards the opposite sex, I can only try much. You don't have a slightest hint how you always cross my mind. I wonder if I ever crossed yours, I'm not hoping though. Sigh. If only I were as insensitive as most people think I am, I wouldn't have to fuss on this issue. It's just too hard to deal with this special feeling especially if you know very well that the feeling isn't going somewhere--especially if you know very well that you'll get nothing but excruciating pain in return. Well I just can't fight this emotion anymore no matter how I feign. I'm not even buying it myself. I guess I cannot but let it flow freely.